i went thru mahh "letter-box" not long ago...
"letter-box" as in the box wher i keep all myy last time letters.
used to write to friendss. den i ran out of penpals. lol.
anywayy.. yarr.. den read autograph books too...
damn weird... its like i forgot so many things le... haha.
i didnt even remember writing to this classmate of mine until i went thru the letter. hehe...
and the autograph books. i realise my profiles are rubbishh!!!
i had like 5 over books kaee... and its all the same pple who wrote in it. keke...
and we used to be so silly and childish as to rate our frenx.. oh mann.
my mother found summ baby pics too... so cute! unlike me!! hehe...

im going for sum chalet.
and i gotta buy summ xmas presents for pple.
damn. i soo gotta save up. hrmmm...

today...
Went to clara's house.. yepp!
did bracelets and all... and den went to tampines mall.
hahaa... okay.believe it or nott its my first time dere.. :p
went shopping... i dun buy anything cept brown markers la. hehe.
and me and clara accidentally ordered too much stuff for lunch.
den our whole table was like almost filled up.
and we had 3 cups of coffee!! haha.
i swear we looked like gluttons. hahahaa....
spent like 10 bucks on lunch. =( sobbs*
clara bought dis green sandals.
i'd buy it if der was brown or white.... maybe black.
consideringg....

went back to clara's house.
used the com for awhile.
got kinda disappointed cos sumone din keep up to his word.
its like as if i dun mean anything to you la.
like it wouldn't matter to you whether i...
blahh.. but why shud i be sad ritee?? haha.
yeahs. look on the bright side and evrythin's finee.....
painted my toe nails....
its kinda brown-ish red.. vehh drk. yepp.. =))

ive got spore idol VIP tics.
going with my lil cousin i thinkk.
but she called and said she had sum lessons on.
n den she was murmuring dunno wadd.
it had to be either
"gif to ur fren"
or
"dun gif to ur fren arr"

haf no idea....
anw. frm today on.
im not having dinner anymore.
im gonna work hard in changing myself.

btw.. i need to get a nice notebook...
pple pls help me look out for one.
thankss-

jay chou's concert was a blast!!!!!
omgg. i lurvee him like madd!!!! i miss him too... =(
i wan more more moree!!! haiss...
okayyys. shall begin from the startt...
i got der at like 645 or sumthinn. den me and myy mother walked aroundd. realised der was some beatels concert going onn... ahaha... first time i see concert so shuangg. no nid queue jus go in liddat den open field, evyone sit dwnn de.. lol. later i got really pissed cos it was 7 plus already and my mother was walking arnd looking for ways to go home. yes. the thing haven start she worry about going home le.. bleahh... okay.. n den we were in alreadyy... saw JJ LIN JUN JIE, SLY, TAUFIK. oh my gawdd lorr.. hahahaha. i cant believe we din bring camera... irritating larr... cud haf gotten pretty gd picss.. booo... so the concert startedd with yi fu zhi mingg... n den blah blah blahh... i hate my sect i tell youu!! nobodyy.. yes NOBODY stood upp... arghh... n den i damn damnn badly wanted to standd. n later iwas the only person standingg. hrmphhff. they come concert den just sit dere n listenn. siann nott?? bt anywayy who careess??
i enjoyedd meself. just that my crowd spoiled the mood larr. harrs.

I LOVE JAY CHOU.
DUN STEAL. loll-
i MISS himm... =(

pRaWns mAke me v0miT!

arghhh... i swear im nt gonna eat anything that has prawns in it anymoree.
except prawn crackers la.. hees.
anywayy... another person ask for a dedicationn....

HENG
who are youu?? someone who tags at my boardd and comes to mahh blogg. and yes! u read my entryy!! hahas. thankks. for that i likee- but who r u laa!!! loll. continue visitingg kkaes. haharr- and thank me for being so nice!!! =)

urmm... jay chou concert coming lee.
im not looking forward to it lehh... i cant go like screamingly madd in fronta my bro n mumm!
bloohs- but nvm.. just go enjoy myself yepp!!!
i wan my xmas money but its no where.....
what are they doingg!!!! hahahaha.
ohhh... n my uncle thot of bringing me to shanghai... urhh ohh..
wad if they say "ohh. the money use for the trip..." =x
cannot cannot!!!!! oh mann. i may be going off noees...
miss me.... :( i'll miss youu!

natasha requested for the message thinggyy. lols. so i shall write one... bcos im nice... horr??? =p

NATASHA
the notti angel-looking gurll.. hahas. sometimes meet you in the morning but you never talk to me and sarah!! ahahas. nvm larrs- whee!!! i lurvee you n yingwai sitting in front of me... and ur pervertic thoughts make me hahaha!!! lols. suchh a funkyy wundeRful woman but i wasnt close to her :( rAwk on kaees!! and continue reading and tagging mahh boardd!! lurveRS of taufikk foreverr!!! he MUST MUST win spore idoL!!!

whee!!!!! sorry if i didnt do a dedication thingyy for you kaess. tell me if you want me to. :)
my mother was going gaga over shuai ges just now. hahaha!!! only the guy that look like du dewei nice lookingg. the rest ok la. but he's the bestt. oh yayness. shall i name the top 3 dream guys i lurvee to bitts? hehes.
1) lu kaiwei aka qi wuyi!!! or isit qi yiwu?? or wu yiqi?? wu qiyi?? i forgot. :p
2) taufikk!!!
3) the du dewei personn.
aikks. firstly.. the person must be gentleman-ly. super nice. considerate. friendly. and yepps. blah blah blahh. hahahha.

i tell you i got 5 blisters kaee!!
on my left hand- index, middle and ring finger.
on my right hand- thumb and middle finger..
*sobbs* too much guitarr playing le..
proves im qinlau okayss. keke....
nw its all numb and weirdd!!! pity mee! :( hehe.
arhh! tmr is the lastt training with coachh. poor thingg canns. boo.
im gonna be nice. yes. nice.

alriteex.. continuation.

SARaH.H
yeahh..the sweet little girll.. hahas.. thanks for pei-ing me to school each morning girL! still must meet up next yr kaees. :P hahas... n sorry if i attitudeded u and alls. keke. really had fun with ya... the only reason why i get so crazily hyper for the rest of the dayy! continue smilingg!!!! and yupps. ur brother rawks alritee. RI rawkss too... *ponders* hahaha... take care babee!

SOPHIA
hahas... cos u read my blogg. and u r such a greaat friendd. always dere when im boredd. u add colours to my ermm. life!! hahas. that sounds crappy larr... continue ur nonsense yeahh! :p n i will support sly... i called 25 times for him last week noe... hahaRs... rockk onn.. i lurve you two three four five!!!!

REST OF 2/O
yeahh.. seperated next yr but so wadd?? we will still be ONE CLASS... foreverr!!! such a maddening notti nOiSy class but i had fun. and everyone else did for sure.. we rock and no one can change thatt. so wad if the tchers think badly of us... *bleahh* kickk their arse n rockk the skool. hahaha... all the efforts of getting the best class awardd. we lurve ourselves rite?! rightt.
1/o'04 and 2/o'04 is the best class everr! :)

others.
pple like hong chow..
yess. i noe im a bitch alrites..
THANKS for all the suaning...
and THANKS for teaching me qing tian..
hahars. yalarr. so wad if u... hahas. nvm.
i trusted u alriteex.
ok.. at least you came and den my bottling up was gonee.
but now. hrmm... but anyways... i doo like you okiee.
u are a great friendd!! gotta apologise for not playing bball with u guys today. im sorrieeeee....
nigel? thanks for being part of my lifee. i finally "wake up" and realise some stuffs..
gotta thank you now that im backk withh... hrmm... yepps! i enjoyed every moment we were togetherr. sorry for all the dao-ing and "destroying" ur life.. uh huhhs. all the best dudee! hehe-
to everyonee!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU!

clara tempted me to do this..
hahas. thus i shall..... begin. my dedication to evryonee!! =))

CLARA
see. im doing it in green!!
hahahas. thankss for thatt short lil sweet msg up der in ur post. oh mann.
tink i didnt do much. :( sorrie.. but i WILL be dere for you no matter wad kaes. yes i WILL.
and you gotta pei me shoppingg lorr. different class le but u cannot forget me hors. u sound like u're gonna abandon me. NO! you'll be mahh no.1 lesbo partner. ermmmmmms. hahaha. nvm. shopaholics unite. hahaas. n ctrl ur excitement when u see a hottie!!! hehes. plus continue the "board shorts pple" whenever we pass dosee ermm. pple. haha... take care of ur stomach!!! and lets dread lians n bengs. lurve yaa!!

EUGENIA
is my darling sister..
all the pei-ing me go out.. i luv youu! hahas. sorry i keep forcing you out and alls. and yes! triple science! study hard alritex. we will be in the same class!!!!!!!!!!!!!! rawkk onn babyy!

FIONA
hahas.. i noe im not thatt close to you and alls. but your sweet smiling face just cheers me up lar. and all the "i'll just die" cutee!!! and den u're always always der.. in fact all of you guys are.. i will be dere oso kaees. hope yyou can go out more oftenn.. n i'll lurvee you always yepps!

KARMUN
yes. another part of me. march baby. same type as me.. thus we haf common thoughts. which leads to MOODSWINGS! hahas. alritees. just stay happy and heck caree all those sad stuffs kaes. im changing so u must change oso. ignorance is bliss!! yumms* we care! yes we do! n we lurve you! moodswingers unitee!!!!!!! hehes.

SHAWN
alriteex..... u were the only survivor in my familyy since sec 1.
yes i do appreciate you for being aroundd. hahas. n u seem to be able to readd me.
hahas. sorry for my english-laness. n ermm... the NVMS.. haha. i will.. i promise i will. let you know my probbs. *finally* hahas. wunt hide from u le kaes. so i wont be so "qian zou-ish" . i swear i will intro pple to you horr. and i will continue being a wondeRful greatt sistaa like ive always been!!!!! ilu! haha! not i loathe you or irritating lucky underwear its. i love you! yeeps! n haha... continue yakking in the cinema!! hahas... flirt on dudee. no more wssup pleasee. kekes.

RANJANI
my poor litte partner who has to tolerate all my crapping madness and terrible moodswings.
i wanna sit with you forever!!! hahas. n talk about facials and wadd?? i forgot! oopss. im gonna miss you larr!! stay tall and sporty netball-ish forever!!!! all the best!! sorry for the rude remaks... damn. gotta apologise to you alot alot. i owe you tonness! hahhs. i lurve you too...

YingXuan
my morning partner..
hahas. farnie freakk. never fail to brighten up my morningss.. :)
im getting tired doing this... hahas. ive got nothing to say! mental blockk. continue the rest tmr. byes!

*sings* i feel good... blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
hahas.. oopss.
oriteex. im hyper, maddening, happy... and i like it.
the way ken does. (idol judge)
hahahaa. as in the way he says it. i like it. lol!!
ok. tat was ages ago... i just haf a wondeRful memory la. wad to do??
hahaha. but i just forgot wad i wanna type..
hmm.. contradiction.

ahh.. i remembered...
u noe wad??
our lifes is on our mentality.
so its gonna suck if u're gonna just sit dere n brood n blame evryone for not caring and think that its a damn blardee freaking day and feel irritated by little things.
instead its gonna rawk if u're gonna stand and hop around. smile to urself in the mirror tink u're funny and laugh ur head off. not get irritated. say u're happy and. yes! ur life rocks.
hahaha. yes if u havent noticed...
i tink u got enuff evidence to say im mad.
u gotta be................. is a nice song! -.-

oh by the way....
note to all COUPLES
its not advisable to... i repeat NOT advisable to
make out in the bus.
please la.
u tink wad. swatch advertisement arr??
everyone's looking lorr.
and hellooo??
why the hell is ur eyes sooooooooo widely open when u're makingg outt??????
henng i was listening to music if not i'll be hearing all dose smooching muack muack noise..
haiss. retards larr.
okay, sorrie...
im hyper. byees-



BE HAPPY!!!!

=/ we're gonna change coachh??
we're gonna change coachh??
we're gonna change coach!!!!!!!!!!
hahahahahs- and thurs is our last training.
ookkay.. poor coach.
and are we gonna die under the new coach?!?!
boo.

the incredibles
super duperr!!!
helen, bob, violet, dash and.. JACK JACK!
lols.
i shall reveal....
jack jack's special ability is to......................
heh heh..
wann know arr?
GO WATCH LA! diongss*
i dun mind watching againn.
call me! haha-

guitar lessons was terrible..
soooo chim!!
watching holland v noww.
jeanette aw den as jing jing
and now as jingwenn
different larr! hahas-
i like jack jack.
and i do not like pple ignoring me
and pangseh-ing me.
and... jus not caring
yepps!
but i miss you lar.

happy birthday mummy!
hahas. alrites. happy bday daddy(18/11) too...
haiyaa. once again i cant be bothered to do anything =x
i tink im bad. yes i am.

and der's sumthing wrong with my bed cann.
i havent been sleeping well for the past 1 week i tinkk.
boo! and i always wake up in the middle of the nite.
and and... yes i do msg rubbish at nite...

ive got training tmrr... bet my coach's gonna kill me.
bleahhs. cant he just quickly kick me to the non-sch team.. haiyos-

someone help mee!!!!
ouchh!!!
does ur sunburn hurt as much alsoo??
now its itching. and its pain when i scratchh!!!
arhh!! but i like the colourr. haha-

i realise why only my back is burnt.. :p
i wanna go back to sentosa larr. i dont care =p

oh yeahhs. i improved my guitar le.. =)
now i can play songs like errmm... joy to the world! skip to my lou! ahahahas.
shuddupp. it takes time ok. soon i will be so pro like the tcher!
arhh... jkjk. i doubt my interest will stay. hehes.
but my cousins like thot of building a basement, gettin a drumset. form a band.
quite funn... last time we always perform for xmas.... now all busy wif our own stuffs le ehh.. hahas.my bro cud play the organ.abel the drum, cal- guitar, fran-vocals. me? dunnoo.
memories*
budden again... my class aint fun at all.. dun wanna comment la.. hehs..
im going out on monday! to celebrate my cousin's birthdayy.
for lunch and movie i tinkk. ive gt training in the morning and guitar lessons in the evening.. hrmm....
i realised how wasted my holidays are..
i tink i spend every single day stuck on the comp.
i shud go get a job. or get my 100 CIP hrs.
cant help it lars. im like lazyy.
but i WAN a job.
i WAN money. =p
especially since my parents are sooo broke now...
i feel bad... but nvm! hehe.
see how i spend each day....

MONDAYS
8-10am: tennis training
5-6pm: guitar lessons

TUESDAYS
4++: chinese tuition

WEDNESDAYS
3.45-6.45pm: learning lab eng tuition

THURSDAYS
8-10am: tennis training
5-6pm: guitar lessons

FRIDAYS
1 hr of chinese tuition

see how free i am...
arghh. disgustingg.
and 1 month's almost gonee.
i bet our holidays gonna be over before i noe it.
damn. i still haf tonnes of homewrk untouched.

and pple are weirdd.
i dun understandd!!!
forget it... thudds-

i hate broken promises.

holidayss??? not-
rightt. im feeling stressed cann??
ive got damn alot of homework to do larr.
learning lab compo, 5 pieces of chinese newspaper article, eng newspaper article, documentary report, book review, guitar exercises, tuition hw- chi compo....

to be done by this week: learning lab compo, chinese compo, 3 pieces of chinese newspaper article and guitar exercises. which is to practice like wad?? 8 songs i tink. fuckk.

ooo.. and my back hurts...i smell of the hazelnut cream thingyy lorr. bloohs-
i regret going for lessons.

i need to go relax again la. aarrhh..

which reminds me i hafta go to the library today!
wow.. i got sooo much free timee.

sentosa
hohoho... class outingg.
got to palawan beach at about 11 and started soaking out in the sun.
loll. played sand and all... yepps.
pity i cudnt get wet.. sobbs*
but anywayy... had a great time! yepps.
despite many scary things happening =x
and im burnt burnt burnt!! i like-
but only at the back. argh.
me, eugenia and fiona were like wearing similar stuffs...
me- black and white spagets.
fiona- orange and white spagets
eugenia- baby blue and white spagets.
hehes.
den i hadta leave early cos of guitar lessons.
luckily...
and after dat wenta join them for dinner at plaza sing.
i lurve the arcade!!!!!!!
i won them for daytona! not sure of spelling. dun mind-
it was like at first clara leading.
den i caught up with her.
and later she overtake me agains.
at the vehh last second i like caught up with her n jus hit her to one side.
LOL. n i WON!!!!!!!!!! =)

i went to unicurd today!
ok larr. the place quite small. so nothing much..
but the bus trip was like soo long. half an hr kaes..
all the way to woodlands....
den the stupid driver arr... keep u-turnin.. goondo la!
bought small bottle of soya bean and ermm. 2 tofu desert.
natural flavour and almond.
alritex... so that was my.. ermm. LUNCH. haha..
how healthy.. but jus when i thought i'd be losing pounds......
read the nutrition values thingyy.
its like wadd??? 4.2grams of fats per servingg?? oh my gawd!! and the drink itself is like... 6.9 or sumthingg.
kaus. thats alot lorr. heckks. hehes.

went plaza singg. den i wenta check out the haach facial thingyy.
sieow. just to enquire, the manager specially brought me to this room...
freaky. but aniwaes. im gonna make my mother let me go! kekes.
and den i was forced to watch bride and prejudice.
but i made clara pay for me.. hehes.
ehh! got deal wan la. i nt so mean.. i gif her $10 off tmr's dinner ok.
so the show was nice.
cute!!! like dance here dance dere.. oh mann...
then got alot of chio bus n hot guys.
ok... no. nt that lamo ass who laffs like an idiot.
and.. no.. not those old pple with disgusting beards and all that.
yes.. the sisters except e one that dance the cobra dance. HAHAHA!
yes... lucky, loilita, and e eldest one. forgot the name. aiikss.
yes... the guy... will darcy isit? wadeva- haha.
didnt manage to watch finish the whole show..
cos i had tuition at 345...
den i hadta leave in the middle. =(
and yes. it was 350pm when i left...
imagine how late for tuition i was.
i wudnt mind if they were doing summ boring stuffs.
but they were watching video lorr!! friends cann!!! *sobb
nvm nvm.... hehes.

yays. off to sentosa tmr!!!! yumms*
but its the time of the month.
haiya. always so suay wan. cant standd.
tonite can see kaiwei again!! :)
niteex!

why they show who everybody choose except kaiwei huhh!
aiyos. anyway. he's mine la.. hehe.
nahhs. vote for jingwen plss.

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[song of the day!]
If you say that you're not serious
Walk away and just forget about us

Cos you don't care nothin bout the things I do
You don't care nothin bout the pain you put me through
Show your feelings for me
Cos you don't care nothin bout the things I say
You don't care nothin bout the way I feel today
But I won't let love R.I.P

I won't take the way you're hurtin me
You gotta treat me with some dignity
I'm much stronger than you think you know
Won't play your game this way

[Love R.I.P-blue]

[song of the day!(2)]
You had me
You lost me
You're wasted
You cost me
I don't want you here messing with my mind
I've realized in time that my eyes are not blind
I've seen it before
I'm taking back my life

[you had me-joss stone]

yeah!! im taking back my life..
lols. guess wad??
my poor little toe is SWOLLEN!
sobbss. but not vehh pain lars. unless i touch it. =x
orites. ive waken up le. at last! hehes.

i love kaiwei!!!!!
and jingwen is chio-er den yixuan lars!!
obviously..

orites. i went orchard todayy.
to do wad? dun ask me..
i can just foolishly wait.
i feel stupided. and fooled.
thanks so much.

went for their bbq.
bt felt vehh out of place..
so left. now at home. duh.

some freaking asshole stepped on my foot in the bus.
my baby toe is bleeding like sieow lors.
idiot.n he didnt even apologise canns..
n i was ren-ing like madd in the bus lorr.
dowan be my mummy no.2
n my toe looked like i did manicure.
painted red at the end..
-.-" righhtt.

such a great dayy.

oritees. so i guess evrythin is finee.... as in... finally cleared that so-called "misunderstanding" tho it is still derr. but decided not to care and thus ive decided to just be me. and if they dun like den dun like. wanna do wadeva oso can.. fan zhen im alone... i realised that pple always always get the wrong idea when i msg them... do i sound like dao and all dats?? hrmmm... smses tend to err.. shites. i forgot. but pleasee dunn misunderstand me!!!!!!!
just came back from hc house not long ago... i swear i wont ever go dere mann! so stuffy and arhahas.. den he bully me canns!!! diary not meant for pple to read wan okays. >.<>will teach me how to read the scores and den play the guitar professionally until i dun need his help anymore. yeah. he'd better do so.... manage to learn a bit of qing tian. here and dere la. my fingers are hurtingg like madness now lor. music is soo not my thing mann. i kept screwing up like sum dumbo. argh. n i had to specially cut my buffered fingernails cos of that.. buffered okiex!!!! boo. now my right hand has long fingernails. my left has unevenly disgusting short fingernails.. [cos i cut in a hurry and the stupid nail cutter so weirdified kaes.] nvm. byes and nitex. take care. by the way. i luv brown.

maybe all i needed was a fren...
my eyes are like redded now.
arhh.

darLingg 

guitar: $69 plus padded bag total:$84

jackett. its brown! my mum MADE me buy it lars.

Happy Deepavali!
and hari raya dunno wad! =s
lols. nice nicee.
but actually badd badd.
i find myself stoning all the time! omg.
hahaha. nvm nvm. nonsense.
learning labb nice. the relief tcher.
i like her voicee! sweet! n her eng so pro. haiss.
she has the same name as me ok!! bt i'll nvr be herr.
sighhs. *idolise*
we did compre. all abt america.
i wrote nonsense for my compre i tell u. hahaha.
no mood mahs. wheeps!
at least no speech, no hw.
and the class is soo quiet!!! hohoho..
denn i started thinking again!!! blehh.
aniwaes. i went out with my dear lil didi, shawn today!!!
go watch movie. walk walk. he is still a little kid i tell youu.. hais. *shakes head*
went to plaza sing larr. im sooo broke now.. sobbs*
to think im gonna buy my guitar tmr. n sum shirts. haiis-

movie: The Forgotten
i thot it was a stupid, slow, boring, assy movie...
at first..
and den it jus got REALLY REALLY fReAkY..
VERY FREAKYY i tell youu!
cant stand it.
imagine la...
suddenly... *boom* the house jus collapse...
den PPLE GET SUCKED INTO THE SKY noe...
hais.. i was freaking outt like madness... arghh!
and dere was dis woman or girl or wadevaa larr!
she iss... hahahhaa.
she screamed when she like saw a reflection of the guy on the mirror.
as in she thot suddenly der was two of the man. hAHAHAHHA! hilarious cann.
but nvmm. i freaked out at that part too. lol.
aniwaes. its about a errmm. experiment la...
freaky freaky freaky.
i dun go like "arhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!" i get like heavy breathing. long-last shock. n den my heart's like popping out. madness!!! lol.
go watch and see for urself la.. dionggs! haha.

SPORE IDOL
1: daphne
she has prob with her head or sumthing. always tilt to one side wann lor!!
she is absolute nonsense.
so wad if her family is richh.
pple DUN vote for her!!!
save ur money for pple like sLy.. olindaa!!! yumms*

2: Olinda
she looks so sad and depressed and tired.
haiss. whyy?? poor her. bloohs.
her performance so steady mann. vote for her!!!

3: Sylvester.
hohoho. i like jay chou and therefore i loved the 2nd performance!
nice nice! hehehe.
vote vote vote!!!
he sounded better den dick in cantonese noee.
dat one complete rubbish la. lols.

4: Taufik batisah!
sleek!
classy!!!!!
oh mann...


ok lar. enuff of all the rubbishh...
now about the champion.. kekeke.
i like/love kaiwei cann.
he is soooooo nice and gentleman and understandin and...
ohh mann...
my dream guyy... haiss......

okayys... yet another dreamm...
why the hell is evrythin just going agaisnt me!
ahahahas. nvm. im suppose to be all hyper and cheery filled with total complete madness rememberr? lols.
who cares about that jerk! *bishh*
i din eat dinner last nightt!!! wheepss!
only finished up the plate of vegs.
oh ya. im suppose to go exercise today. =x
ive got learning lab laterr! argh..
its irritating cann. hoping its nt sum speech thingyy.
and i wanna change class larr!
mine is absolute boredom. evryone is quiet and totally nt responsive.
i dun like.

ytd night!!! i was crazee....
okays. i hope u dun get the wrong idea yeahh...
tmr is thursday! its deepevali! or deepAvali?
arhh. wadeva.. hahahhaa.
to all 2/o-rians. take note, go save up.
den we go seoul garden for dinner on that day..
oritex???? yumms.
i lurve u guys..

im constantly feeling giddy and i dun like it. its disgusting. like everythin i ate is gonnna come out any time and im gonna just black out and drop on the floor.. i feel so freaking restless. wad's happening larr. is it the low blood thingyy. arghh. pple with blood type, o, pleasee save your blood for me next time. i may need it. i think i have insuffiecient blood. seriously. sayy i keep getting giddy and i have dose black outs when i sudd stand up. and im suddenly getting serious motion sickness. hahaha. ever since of escapee? nahhs. i doubt so... i get headaches on the bus, on the taxi, on the car. someone freaking help me. im dying!!! =x haha.

10:15

yes. its over and im not gonna care.
im sooo okay. i never felt so free before.
you're such a freaking jerk u'll bring nothing but sorrow to my life.
im proud of myself. i kicked your freaking ass.
hope no one loves you.
hope you lead a lonely life.
i hope one day you get so freaking hurt you'll kill yourself.
cos you never knew wad i felt.
you never cared. never loved.
just get out of my life.

oh yayy. i like it like this. yumms.
and shawn's nicee...
my bestest lil bro... =)
perharps the only bro that cares.
2 yearss!!
hahas. shocked- arhh.. wadeva!
wheee... had a weird dream last night again...
damn sweet i tell youu!
hope i wont get dose dejavus.
freakky. i dreamt of stuffs that really happpens...

EVERYTHING'S OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!
=)

i'm fucking pissed.
thanks for making my life such an irritating place.
stop leaving me here thinking about -us*
fuck this shit.
your ignorance is just....arghh!
cant you fucking understand?
i wanna hate you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but i still love you.
i hate me!!!!!!!

i saw a dead catt!! hahahas.
saw it ytd oready. but wasnt sure if it was dead.
thot it was jus sleeping larr. ahahas.
bdden saw it again dis morning. at exactly the same position..
its disgusting i tell youu..
the tail is like.... and the face...arghh
its the stoopid freakingg cat i keep out fromm evry morning..
forever scaring me. plus it isnt a single bit cute.
glad its dead. kekes.
its like raining noww.. when will the body like decomposee?
hahaha. n den it'll stink! wheepss! wadeva. :)

went for training dis morning...
was quite ok lars.
but i was playing terribly as usual.
yumms. jeanette came. at last! lol..
after training went to j8 with jeanette..
hahahas. she so cute larr. like so lost.
rightt. went shopping.
she said the jacket wasn't nice!!! im hurt ='(
heh hehh. i lurve it to bitts. i need it now larr!
56 bucks. sum1 buy it for me pweasee...
or at least be nice and donate a little here n derr. thankeww!
eugenia came to meet us later. den jeanette had to go.
bought alot of stuffs today . hee.
spent my hundred bucks oreadyy.
now im broke. n i know it.
still need to buy my guitar. *sobbs*

went ntuc to buy sum stuffs fer my auntie just now.
it rained. n i had to walk back all drenched.
disgusting. den sum pple started shouting to me..
shall not elaborate.
bt pls. get a life.

oh yeahh. came across someone's blog..
weirdd.
it seems so easy for one to fall in love..
it seems so easy for one to give up. to just break up.
arhh.
its like everyone's been loving and breaking.
maybe love was never treasured..

i didnt dream of you last nite.
i tossed and turned on my bed.
you found my weakest side.
dunno y i feel so lost whenever i talk to you
i know wad i want.
is that what you meant when u said it?
i feel fooled by you once again.
i dun wanna go back to my sorrowful days.
but i just cant stop myself.
thanks to you. =(

urgency to go for a diet!
gross. im so fat i tink i gained a kg or two.
yuck yuck yuckk. heLp!!
had a weird weirdd ultimate weirdd dream last nightt.
all about war and alls.
i remember my whole family being involved.
not my cousins..
remember sum of my frenx too.
as in their names. i din see their faces in my dreamm tho.
weird la. its like they caught us den made us do hard labour.
fortunately, i managed to escape.
den i went to hide in sum place.
damn fun la. ahahas.
its like the dream repeated 3 times but different things happened.
i dun tink u're interested.
anywayss... but its still damn weird la!! hahahas.
i noe the prev nite i dreamt of the ccs pple i knew.
about frenship n alls. hahahaha!!!
den i had a dream on chris oso. wheeee!!!
wad shall i dream of tonitee? lols.

i need to shop!
dun deprive me!
n im constantly thinking of how fat i am.
but no matter how little i eat.
im still getting fatter!!!!! grrrr. . .
i wan jian all the feis i can possibly jian!!
i need to buy damn alot of stuffs!!
i need my shopping buddy!!!
oh yeah.
i decided to dedicate tmr to buffering my nails.
hehe. n i need nail polish too :((
im running out of money!

i had macs for breakfast n lunch..
n den i went to forum for dinner.
disgusting. bloated. argh.
dinner was.. ermmm. expensive. yeahh.
like had sharks fin. abalone. cod fish. lobster. gawd.

tmr got training!!!!!!!!!
irritating canns.
gotta wake up at 6!
n den run dunnno how many freaking rounds arnd the skool!
most prob 5 rnds cos my stuuppidd coach said that last week.
eeeeeeew!!!
n den we'll just stand under e hot hot sun and wait for our turn.
n i'll jus screw up like madness.
im so lousy. can sum1 jus faster quick quick switch me to non-sch team?
bleahh.

i lurvve my blog sooo much i can stare at it for hourss!
hahahhas. sooo nice ritee?
tag pple!! keep me entertained! lols.
watched idols. poor oli.
kinda liking taufik now. nice. hahas.
sly is still cute. yeahs.
i wan daphne out next week.
dun vote for her kkaees??
vote for olinda. she so poor thingg.
why nobody vote for her huhh??
kickk daphne out i dunn caree! lolx
at least leandra's out. yumms!!
who's next?
DAPHNE!!!!!!
pls pls pls pls. let oli, sly n taufik be the last 3 on idols!
i like taufik's sername. BATISAH!
nicee!! hahahas. dun vote for -her-, daph
thankss! bbyee! hahas.

i dun likee!!
ken saw me at the bus stop.
n i was horridly dressed!!
plus my hair was down and i had my SPECS onn!!
not fairr la... suayy :((
he better go brainwash himselff! kekes.
went to the lib in the morn with eugez.
bloohs..

last nite idol no chrissypoo no nice.
sadd larr. bdden the rest was ok?
i want leandra and daphne to go outt.
shoo shoo! hehs.
i need to SHOP-
dun deprive me...
sum1 ask me out now now now!!
my 1-week-resting-at-home "grounded" thing is gone gone gone le!
quick call me! teehees.

streaming results out le.
option 1.
triple science.
rightt.
dose smartypants din choose trip sci den they got into others..
yayness.
jus called eugez and she's in trip too!! yummiess...
plus rachell... wheeps.
*cross finger*
let us be in the same class. heex-

i keep myself entertained by playing solitaire evryday... -.-"
its raining and i like it!! :) heex.
i gotta like do a report.
damn learning lab.
fuck dem. waste my time.. bleahhs-

went for training in the morning.
i cudn't hit a ball over..
yeah. im a failure! wheeps.
hahass... den went home striaght.
finished up my chinese tuition hw.
had lunch n den came online.

its freaking boringg.
i wanna be out in the rain!! lolx.
maybe i jus shudnt do my report.
n den when they ask for my hw...
i can just say i left it at home!!! yeppsss!! hhahas.
planning on going to the library tmr.
n den to j8.
thats if im accompanied..
iwannabealone.=)

hohx... so much on blogging...
realised im hooked onto it whenever i need to talk to someone.
hahas. and u're right. i nvr found tat someone.
so... 3rd post of the day.. yepps!!!
my blog says it all... :)

i haf training tmr!!!!!!!
bloohss. i tink i really really need it.
hahas. will i still be able to playy?
i havent touched my racket for nuts.
the rest still haf their external training at least.
blahs. tennis dusen rock as much. kekes.
so i have something to keep me occupied in the morning.
after that i'll most probably go j8 to shop abit.
dunno who to get..... i wanna buy my converse jacket!! howw?

had tuition just now.
dunno why i choose to wear a pink shirt.
so not my colour. eew.... nvm. hahs..
was relatively quiet.
i dunno. jus kept thinking. bleahh.
ok. wadeva. ignorance is bliss.

i got alot alot of things to do.
tuition is soo disgusting.
i only got more homework now.arghh.
and i desperately need to get a book!!!! gawd.
i wonder why i never had sum1 to talk to...
but then again...
i'm just so [me]
haha.. yaya. im not talking right.
here and dere.
i bet u dunno wad im saying.
just ... byebye!

maybe it was meant to be...

confusedd//-
wasn't tis wad i wanted a week ago?
but now i just choose to let go...
what's wrong with me? i dunno..
my thoughts.. unclear.
so now i'd rather we go our seperate ways.
i know it's best we never meet again.
i might regret.
but let's just continue our lives.
i guess i dun wanna go thru dose sorrowful days again.
im sick and tired of your lies and ignorance.
you were a chapter of my life.
it's over now. im not turning back.
it's the end-
i loved you once. but im not letting myself love you again.
you've hurt me too many times before and you cant hurt me no more.
ive given up on you-
ive given up on myself.

hohoho...
finally!!!!!!!!
im well... hehes.
ok. i admit i still have my cough..
but no fever! wheeps. hahahs.
did u all miss me??
i didnt come online for dayss!!
thanks to the stupid cable which was spoilt.
n the guy only came to fix it today.
bleahhs.

jus remember i got tuition tmr..
sianded-
n i dunno whether to go or not.
wad am i thinking.
wad do i wan..
arghh. sucky shit. >.<
n stupid chrissypoo got out oreadys.
irritatingg!! he so cute and nice. sobbs*
n dose girls on tv actually got to like hug him la.
its so nt fairr!!! bloohs.
i shall blog about friday.

dose pple forced me out.
despite the fact tat i was sick and dying.
i still went.. =))
bought a shirt. yumms!
but i soo need to shop more... hehe-
walked around den met them up at ps.
watched cellular.
its a retarded show.
i bet you'll only watch it as a last resort.
since now der's nooo great interesting movies to watch at all.
but really it's damn dumb la.
stupid. shud be able to tell by e trailer.
how far would u go to save a stranger.
right--
n the show is soooo anti-climax k!
tis n tat.
n i dunno the real motive.
is it suppose to be farnie? gawdd. dowan comment le.
its sooo dumbb! gags.
wadeva!! hehs.