whee.i just came back from movie with my cousins. Wall-E (x
i think it's nice! you should go watch it. & it quite scary how the not-so-distant future may be like. arhh. hopefully we dont go in that direction!
& I guess love just makes the world go round!
heh.

things are much better now! though its the "mugging" period. but i STILL dont have the mood to.haha. but i guess and i really REALLY hope that things will still go okay after all. oh wells. yes. i'll make sure this holidays wont go to waste. i will study okay!! hah.

i'm just gonna blog about some random stuffs. like my day after econs essay paper. i really had a great time with the guitar pple and fang and just talking about stuffs. & those deep insights with HuiLi. i think its nice to just sit at glorias and enjoy our nice cheap $3 coffee ice blend and talk about people. lol.(it's not all about gossiping ok!) about our future like us wanting (okay, not exactly WANT but more of a NEED to) go overseas to study bcos the sg universities dont offer whatever we're interested in. haha. and its just nice to take a break from this hectic life to talk about LIFE and how things are... how people behave.. rahhs. interesting(: & i really feel so much better after that day.

sometimes all we need is a break from our busy schedules.
so YOU mugging hard there. have a break! (have a kit kat!)
just call someone up to talk. or just go down for a walk or watch tv for a while.
mugging isnt gonna get you no where.
work-life-balance.
yes.thats the way.

so many things have happened. which just adds on to how terrible this year has been.

but i suddenly dawned upon many things that i've neglected all these eighteen years of my life. How much i've wasted each day of my life. when studies was once such an important, probably the most important thing in my life. all the effort that i've put in but now i've just lost it all. but i have much better things to accomplish in life than just studying and i'm going to make sure i'll live life so much more fruitful now.

first it was my uncle at alexandra hospital. i can still remember the first time i went to visit him, how fragile he seemed and how everyone was so worried about him. and even to the extent that the doctor had told us to be prepared and let things go naturally. and how he would always pull out that tube they inserted into his stomach through his nose and then they would bleed after that and we had to tie him down to his bed. and then he became better each day, he played with us, although he couldnt speak, i know he could sense the love everyone had showered upon him. and his facial expressions always showed how he was feeling. (which many of us have lost the ability to just express our emotions out freely, hidding it deep inside us) and his hands grabbing tightly onto the toys we bought for him. he's just very much like a small boy. i guess that's the innocence of man without facing all these complexities in life. and then came his operation which caused him an infection and he even had to be isolated for fear of spreading some virus. and that time my mother was so worried for us that she desanitised all our belongings there. arhh. and now he's fully recovered and back at woodbridge and even able to enjoy at least his pleasure in life, of eating.

and then just a few days later my grandfather met with an accident. and now he's hospitalised cos he had a brain haemarrhage operation which could have led to much worst consequences if we hadnt send him to the hospital that night. but its just saddening to see how someone who was so strong and fit suddenly lying on the bed and being unable to move. he used to cycle to parts of singapore, he used to go all the way to wherever just to get us nice food and to buy nitty gritty groceries and even brought it to our doorsteps. and now, he has difficulty even lifting his leg. and fears of being unable to move after all this while laying on bed. it's scary how things in life can go through such drastic changes in just a split second.

for one, we've been through much misfortunes. but on the other, i'm just glad that things have always worked out well. and how "lucky" we actually were for all these things have happened that at least it didnt turn out with worse consequences. and i really cannot imagine them happening. but i thank god for that for blessing our family so much. and for having such a wonderful family that have been so supportive of each other. and i realised how important family was. that even though things have not turned out well, they were still so optimistic and not letting this turn them down. and being there for my grandfather and my uncle, for everyone, each day.


& i'm just hoping, wishing please let him recover. let him be that strong fit grandfather of mine. give him the strength to face all these obstacles and the mental strength to get well soon. i'm sure he'll be able to do it. i'm sure he can.

haha. the internet's such an incredible tool.

& it has just wasted hours of precious studying time. ahh.what the heck!
but nvm. im still feeling happy.
it's time worth spending. hahaha.

okay. (if you know what i mean.)

The days i visited singapore again




haha. doesnt he remind you of that funny boy on those spam emails and shirts!


she's hott.(& willingly posed for me) haha.


she wanted to be on the camera!


my cousins and taiwan relatives(:

& we were pretending to be sleeping on the train.

haha. chin's favourite!



it crawled onto her!

oh my i just woke up from those sweet dreams.
and its really time i should.
BRENDA! sighh.

why oh why! have i lost all my motivation to study. what kept me going all theeesee years. i cantt CANNOT no way am gonna give up now.
but!! what happened! rahhhs. brendaa. BOO. there's only 2 more weeks left!

anyway. i'm blogging right now after so long bcos i need some time to reflect! heh. if not i'll just be stoning forever.
i think my darlings are still the best. i just feel so nicee with them. heh.
after sooo long, thats what jc turns us into, busy prigs, we meeting up less and less often nowadays. but we finally got together! whee(: haha. and even though i could only stay there for a while i just felt so muchh better after that! heh. yay i love them to bits.

& now i guess i just gotta get back to studying again. ):