okay. countdown. 3 more days till school starts. ): arent you sad that it#s nearing! it means i have to leave the house super early like catch the earliest 854 i think. sigh. and it means new environment and and and. i dont know. it might turn out bad. i might not like the place and the long journey there might be torture. arghh. and i cant have my minimum 10 hours of sleep (i dunno why i've been sleeping at 12 and waking up at 10, 11) boo. and i wont be able to spend the whole day on youtube watching that korean variety show xman. ARHHH! and i wont be able to spend time with my darlings! no more shopping, no more k-ing. no more no more no more. =/

sigh. and then those pple who are not gg for first three months, they will have so much more time at home lah. unfair unfair. and soon we'll have to be studying and writing and using our brain again. ohmygosh. scary.

past few days spent at home stoning away and resisting all the temptations to eat. boo. i should have enjoyed my last few days of holiday den stone at home! bahh. nvm. one last day. 2nd january. occupy me pretty please!

firstly.
i apologise to anyone i have insulted and was mean to yesterday! i was high. and all the swearing and everything. it's meant for pure fun. RIGHT YINGWAH? heh. thats what too much chocolates do i think. getting me high. so now i realise when i'm high i'm up to nonsense. and i'm sorry that i was irritating and annoying like always. hee. wups =x

now now. i'm online and blogging because this is the only way i can divert my attention to something else rather than all the tempting chocolates, biscuits and cookies and sweets and chips and ice cream and tarts out there. it's dangerous lah! i need to lose my flabs man. and so! i shall go jogging later in the evening. hopefully it stops raining. whee!

ANNOUNCEMENT! TODAY I WOKE UP AT 9AM. LIKE THE EARLIEST SINCE I DUNNO WHEN. HAHAHA. YOU KNOW WHY? BECAUSE I GOT INDIGESTION FROM YESTERDAY'S FOOD AGAIN I THINK. THERE'S LIKE SOMETHING WRONG WITH MY STOMACH LAH. ITS GETTING POOR IN FUNCTIONING. ERRRGHS.

oh. and i've got the sudden urge to go dancing!!!! eeeeks. somebody tell me. is amore still on?

I'M BEING SHIT MEAN.
AND F HIGH.

SO DONT STOP ME.
RAWWRRRR.

the best christmas. or not?

merry christmas (:

though its one day late but i havent found the time to blog recently. and also, not been having the mood to. heh. okay. christmas is very christmas this year because of the partys we had and all the going out. i should be feeling blessed that my family celebrates christmas every year and countdowns and all. maddening. and i should be convincing myself that the family celebration was good enough no matter how much i wanted to be at the other party but my mum didnt allow it. and how much i was just hoping that on our taxi journey home she'd say "okay lah. let you go." and den drive down there. or hoping my brother would at least help me or anyone else. okay. so i should stop feeling all gahhh about the whole thing. yes yes. i'm happy enough with my family celebration. ;D i hugged everyone. haha. and i'm still gonna be hugging everyone. yay.

okay. now i need help. when you see me and im moody, shake me and make me go high. thanks.

anyhow. yesterday i watched night at the museum. which is a super entertaining show. MUST watch okay. its worth the money. cos its like the first movie i didnt feel like i needed support in the cinema. and that proves it's so engaging and trapping that i was entertained thoughout. hee. after that we went to gardens for dinner and bowled. 'm getting bad lah. whatever.


today 'm suppose to go out with them but im feeling lazy and the stupid weather. its raining again lah. so i dont know. haha. 'm meeting them at three instead while they go have fun and walk around themselves first.

its picnic over at my house today! yay(: woke up and the sun was SHINING! like woohoo! but i dont know if it'll last till tonight. hmmm. today'd be a good day to shop though. poots. lets see what i got to get.
1.puma shoes
2.jacket
3.heels
4.slippers

and i guess with all that all my money will be spent away! i'd better save the remaining. if there is any left. haha. i've gotten myself like three tops and a skirt already. gahh! i want like floods of money. den i can go shop shop and buy my black mango jeans and electric blue shirt and the bloosoms shorts and and.... SIGH.

anyhow. i think you suck.

i walked in the rain soo much. stupid droopy weather. it somehow just makes me feel lonely and cold. erks. it didnt help having this couple right in front of me being all huggy and everything. and definitely not when you just had to call me up. TO SELL YOUR FREAKING TICKETS. nvm. i dont care you all already. (:

presents presents! i need to buy myself things. and for others too. ohmygosh. hurry hurry!!

okay. this is an open invitation to EVERYONE.
there'll be a xmas 'picnic' at my place on the 20thDECEMBER 3pm.
you can come earlier if you want. just give me a call.
it'll be potluck so everybody has to contribute food! if not i'll throw you into the pool.
and since it's a xmas thingy.
please bring presents along. for everybody if you're nice cos basically me yingwah and eugenia and xianglin got presents for almost everybody.
and we're sorry if we leave anybody out but yahh.
please bring presents so than got xmas atmosphere you know!
it's the joy of giving.
(:

down to TJ took an hour. thanks best friend for accompanying me there despite not having slept for i dunno how many nights. hmmm. but someone's gonna be rich lah. boo. i want a job! so i wont go out and spend so much and instead go work and torture myself and earn money and feel good so i can go crazy shopping like to the mango sale and buy anything i like instead of restricting myself. boo. and buying new shoes cos my mum uses my shoe. BOO her. she never ever buys stuff for herself lah. it's irritating. i want a shopaholic mummy so she wouldnt be thinking that i'm spending too much and be more genorous by giving me more money to shop cos she should know better that i take after her. but my mum is unfortunately not so. gahh! you know what TJ 'd better be fun if not it wouldnt be worth the freaking long journey. so it'd better be good. boo.

i hate this stupid stomach of mine. its like indigestion or what but it just keeps making me feel like eatnig more even though i've eaten alot cos there's this like growling feeling that just makes me feel like eating to stop it feeling so.... weird. it's like a reflex action you know. making me fat. errkkks. i wanna go pooling. i wanna go watch movie but i only have fifteen bucks to survive for the rest of the month. i dont know how my money flew away but it did. AHHH. plus all the bowling and everything. it's gonna KILL lah. gosh.
anyhow once again. i'm sorry.

this is what happens. you listen to too many bad remarks and you just naturally get influenced by it. misled maybe. and this is where trust comes in. and how nice a person you can be. i know its wrong. i know how freaking ass mean i am. and yet im still doing it. cos i dunno why but i'm just feeling irritated. maybe it's cos of too much i heard. too much thats happened. i dunno what the shit 'm suppose to do now lah. but all that you're doing is just pissing me off further cos i think you really need to get some senses knocked in and that thing that runs in virgo-s. i can't stand it. argh. and this thing that runs in me. i dunno. it's bad. i should learn to change it.

tj aj nj?
WHICH!
argh. this is quite irritating.

yayy. job hunting failed. but anyhow. i just want some temporary job can someone please get it for me? )x okay! me and brother went pooling. at paradiz. again! haha. i won 3 games! brother won 2. i think. haha. i won cos first game he got the white ball in with the black ball. second cos he hit in the black ball in the middle of the game. third 'm not sure. but i think it's some foul. haha. hey! but the last game i was spose to win. but he won it in the end cos the white ball went in with the black ball. gahhs. so 'm not that shit lah. dont care. haha. (: and we went toys r us. and spent like i think half an hour there hearing the polar bear do its rarr rarr thing. i felt like getting it for the two rarr-ers. yw and manda. gosh. n den with the robot thingy that kept shaking its booty retardedly. haha. but 'm high =D as usual.

tmr's results!! =D 'm going out with twin and kavin and eugenia! sushi lunch and movie. yippeedooodledeee! haha. my friday's empty.

SOMEONE ASK ME OUT!
i need to shop for everyone's xmas present.
'msorry. i know i'm mean.

okay. just hung up the phone. (: 'm gonna start blogging about my SUPER crazy day so beware! haha. yayy. today was suppose to be like sgoon grdens club day. go bowl den pool there or sth. but ppor kavin got food poisoning which turns out to be i think stomach flu lah. den he couldnt make it. so we had our back up plan!! bowled at marina and i got two strikes. eugenia had the highest score! yayys. i admit i was abit crazy today but hey! i brought to you all laughter and fun okays! like woohoo! haha. yay. today rocks. =D

anyhow! i was in my bro's cap and acting hip and all. cos i think im damn cool so i became a guy but my chest betrayed me. ANYHOW.i became xianglin's boyfriend but i think she dumped me in the end. she very leng qing wan lah. wanna dump only dump. haha. but she didnt allow me to hug her okay! ohmygosh. so sad. her boyfriend so cool den she still so cold. eeyer. went to esplanade to eat. and to the roof terrace to celebrate nigel's bday. (once again) haha. and he ah! go put the strawberry icing thing or whatever shit on my hair and it became sticky and sweet smelling. if tmr the ants crawl to me i'll kill whoever's guilty of it PERSONALLY. haha. okay. den we took a maxi cab and the nice taxi uncle gave 6 of us a lift to paradise for meter fare plus 4 more dollars. hoho. nice little uncle =D played pool and we went high again. maybe i should train up. gahhs! yummy.

you know what.i got headache. shall sleep.
NIGHTS.

out with brother tmr! (:

i wanna go kbox again and sing all those crazy songs with weird mtvs! like there'll be this fugly looking woman with REALLY HUGE hair like curly curly pong pong one and she'll be like what walking aimlessly and den the camera just takes different angles of her to act to the dramatic effect and TADAHH! a stupid mtv is filmed. one day! 'm gonna be a director of a weird mtv too. and 'm gonna be taking down YOU!. haha. give me feelings! ling gan!

now! i've got a new hobby. maybe i'll grow up to be a professional photographer and like go around the world taking pictures and my pictures will be OH so nice. whaa! i love that pro little thingy okay! oh my gosh. someone should get me that camera next time. i want i want i want! it makes all of us high like ALL of us which includes me and i dunno about yingwah but her guy got her into this porn shot and best friend got a little high and tipsy. and baba started taking my ugly small eye and and nigel the birthday boy whose birthday isnt here yet. hahaha(: i love everyone lah. yay.

now now. if you would like to call me out please do. but so far 'm only free on hmmm wed and fri and the weekends and next week unless i get a job then you gotta be going to town to help me out in those surveys. and maybe im going out with brother on wed. im not sure yet. haha. yay. and on the last week of the holidays i'll be working for fbt warehouse like selling shorts. its gonna be fun lah. i love yay! haha. i'm like typing without looking at the keyboard and i think its damn cool because im like getting pro hahahaha. yay. i can type. can you? i doubt so. haha. cos brenda's the best in the world. dont deny if not i'll chop you into a hundred pieces and throw you into the singapore river. (x

okay. a note of warning. i'm sorry if i got a bit of mood swings, if i'm a little high low. sorry. and sorry cos i may get a little ah lian-ish and chor lor. i dunno why but im getting chor lor these few days. just look at me and smile okay. and go crazy with me. just go crazy.

shake shake shake! shake that booty! let's get dancing. pump it!!
blast the freaking loud music and dance with me!
woohoo!

memories dont fade.
they stay in your heart forever.

at the end of the day
there's only one person to blame.
me, myself and i.
for being so foolish.
and stubborn.
for not letting go.
cos its the past.
that are only meant as memories.
and not to be retrived.
hopeless.

if 8th was suppose to mean something.
if you even remembered.
if you ever cared.

sometimes the heart lies.
thoughts misleads.
and feelings fool.

it's just you.
and there's nothing i can do.

okay. im so f bored im gonna blog retarded stuffs like dumb stuffs that will not interest you but anyhow you better read on like cos how on earth can brenda toh yi ling ever got boring huh! 'm like the most interesting person on earthh mahnn! haha. den once again im gonna go on about how i'm MYSTERRIOUS! and you can never get me.
BCOS I'M PISCEAN!wahaha

this is so nehneh i cant believe im stuck at home with nothing to do. tonight's MOS. and and. that dumb JIANRUI like ps me! i cant believe it. so ass lah. he's gonna die. BOOOO. i have no ass idea what 'm suppose to do now and its all HIS fault. so if he EVER reads this he'd better be feeling uber guilty now cos he's hurt the all-so-great BRENDA. okay. i realise i have been infected with baba-ness. probably due to all the nonsensical talking. aiyoyo. but he so poor thing fly away already.

okay. come let me tell you more about the mysterious me. hahaha. i have my own WORLD and you know i'm in it when somehow you talk to me and i just nod and go orh and like stone at you and stare stare den after a few minutes i will realise that i heard nothing of what you've said and den i'll ask.. what did you say? hahaha. okay. yingwah and eugenia knows this trait of me best. haha. esp yingwah when she's talking to me on the phone and im using the comp i'll be like dragging my huhhhhhhhh. and den she'll be quiet. cos she knows im not listeing. hahha. :D and otherwise. you may be talking to me about your story and all this and den i'll suddenly ask another question thats totally out of the topic or i suddenly talk to someone den you nkow that i'm not listening to you. haha. like eugenia who tried to talk to me in changi airport and i just ciuldnt get anything into my ears. and if you happen to notice any of this and before you would very much like me to concentrate on what you're saying, do this. SHAKE ME!!!hard and shout and scream and say BRENDA! LISTEN TO ME! ahh. see you learn something new today from brendified.blogspot.com hee. =D like during lab lessons esp chemistry yingwah 'll be talking to me and whatever question she'll be asking me like WHAT COLOUR's your ppt or what to do ah? i'll just keep saying i dunno thats bcos im not listenign to you and den you must shake me once again. heh.

next next! i realise 've got tonnes of stuffs to do like xms present shopping and and writing of grad letters. ohmygosh! how. but 'm lazy. boobahh.
tonight better be crazzyyy cos i dunno what 'm gonna do if i get depressed. den again he isnt worth shit.
WOOHOO! 'm starting to feel my cramps.
bad sign.
ohno.

okay. now i know. i think pointys will seriously spoil your feet. damn shit lah. its PAINNN like crazee okayy. 25 bucks for torture. mad. i bought quite some stuffs today. i felt like i spend alot. i think i did. my 40 bucks in my wallet's GONE lah. i dont know where it flew to. anyhow. this is soooo nehneh. i shall not go out anymore. SHIT. i forgot there's kbox. ahh. what the heck. BLEAH.

tmr 'm gonna high high high with jian rui! whee. and later even higher and higher until i reach the highest and jump into the big blue sea. watch me. =D

WOOHOO!
okay i'm quite low.
f boo.

okay i can conclude that i have lost interest in korean dramas.
i'm taking a SUPER long time to watch gong lah.
and somehow i think it's damn boring.
i used to be that kind that will watch disc after disc and not sleep. but now its like haha. i cant wait to stop watching. =x dunno lah! it's boring. and i keep getting distracted. like right now though it's playing, im blogging! haha. boring boring. BOO. maybe cos gong's boring. or maybe cos i've watched like shots of it here and there. gahh. whatever it is. hee.

let's see. next week's gonna be busy. picnic, kbox, maybe MOS, blah blah blah. YAY (x