i have lots to do!!
i felt so stressed just now i broke down. rahh. so many things and no mood. now.. i gotta get my PI done by tmr. plus GPP. ohmygosh. and you knowwww. i've been failing every single test bad. 1/15 for GP, 2/9 for math, 5.5/12 for econs, what else. ): sadd lah. i wanna be high and happy.
but no company. boo.

whee. since i have some time left before i leave for sgoon i shall blog! actually i'm late already but i wanna listen to my song first. yay. heh. FIRST. i shall apologise for not including my darlings in the to-do list but WAIT when i put kbox i meant with you guys okay! haha. so yw ah. i got think of you all wan okay. and i'm still waiting for our gelare and tau huay ): so many things to do. i've still got lots of work undone lah. but i'm feeling uber lazy as usual. i havent touched nuts for this weekend and i wouldnt have time later. but all i do is brood over it. lol. tmr is monday which means its a new week of school. gahhs. and ive got lots of netball trng next week so im gonna get busy busy. BOO.

now. the weather's super hot these days. its extreme lahh. like its either super cold or super hot. i cant stand it already. and you know last week's AI show made me thought of death. i dont know. i dont want the whole earth and everyone to die together. its so sad ): let me die of old age please. let me die not knowing im going to die. i think the countdown to the day we die is scary. esp when we know its coming. ):

SO RANDOM! =D

KEEP MOVING FORWARD.
at least i got some reflections from that super expensive nine bucks movie. lol. quite coincidental after all these events i had to watch a movie that told me to keep moving forward. (:

and so i'm here to announce that i'm SOOO happy cos i'm done with PI. like finally. yayy! =D arent you happy for me too. hee. it's little things like this that you've got to find satisfaction in. and then life will be happy and joyful^^ of course unless you're in tj oac and all that work outs and tortrous trainings are like the GREATEST sense of achievement anyone can get. REALLY. (:

and its times like this when i start feeling fat cos i ate damn alot and without OAC trainings, i just don't get to lose all those calories. disgusting. let's see what life without OAC equals
-less muscle aches
-less cries of torture
-less pain
-less sadistic thoughts
-more slackiness
-more laziness
-less running
-less fit
-less sense of urgency
-less "NO GAPS!" and "YEAR ONES, BEHIND THE LINE"
i've almost lost the feeling of being pushed to the limits. and without OAC, you just dont get pushed to the limits. of course because i'm one lazy bum to start with so i wouldnt be pushing myself unless necessary. whaha. not a point worth celebration.

i realised my money's flew away and my hopes of getting my jacket and wallet and bag has FLOWN FAR FAR AWAY. *frowns. wouldnt it be good if it rained money or if i wake up tomorrow and i'm a thousand dollars richer? heh. i'm only asking for a thousand not like a million so i'm not being greedy so money god whoever you are please consider making me a little happier? =D

and now! i want to do lots of things.
1. go out with a FULL oac gang.
2. first intake cg 13/07 outing.
3. kbox
4. kickboxing again
5. sakae with best buddy
6. buy my classical guitar
7. dancing classes
8. study and bcome extremely smart

& I KNOW IT'S A WONDERFUL WORLD.

it's a bad year.
okay. i should probably resign to being called a quiter. rahh. there's just too many regrets. too many mistakes. it's like i can't trust myself anymore.
first i gave up on tj AND tj oac.
den i gave up on AJ's odac
and i gave up on cheetah's cheerleading.
i gave up on AJ scholarships and council.
i withdrew from the guitar backstage crew last minute.
i'm like giving up on every single thing.
and netball trng today was not where it was suppose to be so i wasted half my day when i could have been helping out for the guitar concert. i'm super disappointed in myself already.
ARGHHH.

A blog is such a useful tool to be emo. AWW. haha. okay. it's not like i'm depressed or anything. i can't find anything to really be depressed about. haha. unlike the past where everything just gets me down. that's disgusting cus now. HAPPINESS IS MY GOAL FOR LIFE.and that was my chinese compo. haha.
quite irritated with her. that cher. she keeps picking on me like i'm some bad student. so now i just cant be a good one in front of her anymore. probably cos on the very first day of school i got caught for playing cards and tadahh. first impression counts. the other. my pw group probably is the worsttt nightmare ever. but i guess right now i just have to accept and work with them. it might get better. all i can do is hopeee(: and the class. is quite alright. except for probably it being divided. but 'm okay with it. =D 've already got tonnes of regrets for this year. blame it on contemplating. like btwn tj and aj, now the odac thing i'm sorry i wasted on someone else's space. =/ and i missed aj scholarship and the alpha list. horrible rahhhh.

SPEECH DAY. was boring. i think it wasted my precious time i could have woke up a little later you know. anyhow. i'm glad i got to caught up with yingwah and had a little teeny weeny talk. yay. and hagen dazs treat from nigel and don. so sweeet of 'em. haha. we ordered expensive sinful stuffs. wups. hee. i want to go gelare tmr lahh! but i've got grrr cheerleading. and i want to go ben and jerrys also. ): pouts-

HOMEWORK. i cant catch up. like right now. i really really know i've got tonnes of work uncompleted but i just dont feel like doing. i still want to slack some more. and its quite scary that 2years is a terribly short time. nehhhs. so it's now or never.