HAPPY TCHERS DAY!
to all those wonderful tchers out there.
i think they rock like crazy.
and so do we.
haha. first time i did the whole monitress thing.
quite fun cos dibsy like came REALLY close to me and i talked to some tchers and got to know the FUN side of them.
i think they're super cute lah!
they were super nonsense outside the hall.
like playing around. heh.
i love them!!
think today very shuang! heeee. :D
teleteachies are sooo cute kaes!!
whee!

ytd went back.
only to see mr siva.
den we got chased off.
the new principal's evil and mean.
boooo.
talked to wc and hx.
i cant stand it.
you should try standing like next to the 2 of them.
you'll just feel super small.
inferior! haaha. but i think they're nice (:
i miss pri school days!
when we stayed back in school and crapped.
we didnt have to mug so hard.
and everything was just the way it is.

had a dream last night AGAIN.
maybe cos i was talking about him before i slept.
i think good friend is so... good.
haha. with that, i'll mug harder and work towards that high high spot!
i'll reach for the impossibility!
and make my dream come true. (:

do you even remember i once existed?

dont ask me why i'm here blogging when i should be mugging away for my chem prac!
i dunno why lah. i'm so slack and so not motivated to study.
okay. i mean somehow i will still study but i dont feel the stress to study HARDER.
which i think everyone is. and i know i should be feeling that stress too but NO.
something's wrong!
i just got home not long ago from that stupid rehearsal lah. waste of time.
all we did was just practice walking in ONCE. and we had to stay back till 2 n it took another 2 hours.
i only got back at 4.
AND. there's another prac on wednesday at 230 when school ends at 1245.
argh.
i just had eng prelims today.
it doesnt feel like prelims.
this result is suppose to take me somewhere during my first two months.
yet i didnt sense the importance of it.
and very well, i think i did screw it up.
my situational was so horrible it cant get worse!
i started crapping at my THIRD paragraph cos i already ran out of points.
that's uber pathetic i tell you.
and it was extremely short. i dont even think i reach the minimum requirement of 350 words.
section one was okay cos i wrote longer than i normally do.
but am very sure that once again. i was very fu qian.
no depth! poo. compre was managable but summary was....argh.
i dont know. nothing to write.
pray pray. and i'b probably stick with my B3!

my parents kind of quarrelled.
their quarrels make me sad. boo.
can i hate daddy?
he's stubborn, inconsiderate, caustic, arrogant.
all the qualities that fugged guys have.
he doesnt pay for stuffs and makes mummy pay.
i hate it when guys refuse to pay lah.
they're not suppose to be parsimonious okay!
he puts almost every single blame on mummy.
and always think that he is in the right and that he did nothing wrong.
i think you can wait eternity to hear him apologise.
i doubt i ever heard sorry come out from his mouth.
and so he expects mummy to do everything for him.
he's so lazy and he doesnt move his ass.
like when he wants something he'll just tell us to get it for him and not he get it for himself.
arhh.
but den again i feel bad cause i never once treated him with much respect.
my family isnt perfect at all.

NEXT! brother msged me on sat night.
he made me feel old and disgusting.
den i realised in no time at all.
we'll be leaving secondary schools.
and soon we'll be working.

walk away.

oh my god.
i freaking hell SLACKED THE WHOLE DAY.
to do up that tchers day calendar.
which i doubt is going to be appreciated at all.
but anyhow.
all for the tchers.
not THEM.

dont deny.
it matters who the person is.
some things you do arent very much appreciated.
but when the other does it it's extra special and sweet.
i have amputated that two hands.
and probably brainwashed myself.

twin loves to have his rest on the sofa.
ayyys. pigg!

brenda really really wants to study hard.
i wanna aim for my 6 pointers.
i wanna make everyone proud and jealous of me.
especially you.

im uber high now cos i saw JJ.
HADY.
and den it added on by having WILBUR PAN tmr.
oh my gosh.
too much to handle!
im drowned!

heh. dont you think jj was adorable!
heh. i started screaming at the top of my voice!
oh man! i MISSSS him like much.
and prev on the way home was just missing ang!
boo. den yw called to tell me that hady was up first.
so i practically RAN my way home okay!
hee. all for hady.
HADY ROCKS!
lets pray mathilda, nurul, joakim or maybe jasmine gets out!

im so piscean.
im MYSTERIOUS!
so you dont know that much about me after all.
woots.

and brother "rawrr-ed" at me again.
-.-
twin is my crapper!
he flew away.

and you moved on with life.
whatever.

STUDY.

dont ask me what i really want.
cos i dont know.
i just wanna smile.
can i?

i got flu i got flu.
im sick im sick!

my eyes and nose was like continually dripping.
and i couldnt stop sneezing.
but im much better already.
i guess.

abit of headache.
hecks.

i bet im gonna be okay tmr.
boo.

okay. im abit spinning now.
hahaha. whatever.
i woke up with a bad throat.
like super pain.
it was difficult to get every single drop of saliva down okay.
i tried studying. but but. yeahh.
i just think my year is really screwed.
but you know what.
WHATEVER.

yesterday was nonsensical day.
prize taking.
i was so busy smiling i forgot to bow. hahaha.
but i was not the only one alright.
later. we got to community singing! yumms!
the tchers and their marvellous brains.
they got the whole hype!
bubbles! confetties! ahh. whatever you spell it.
goh goh!
ang ang!
haha. gohgoh was busy.
i saw angang gave the "you guys are really mad" look to us when he left the whole.
but in the WOW positive tone and not the EEEEW negative tone.
welcome angang to the cedar family! heh.
oh oh.
tmr's HOLIDAY.
and im gonna spent it at home!
studying my head out.
friday will be results.
monday will be english oral.
thats fast.
i seriously wonder how i'll do for prelims.
REALLY.
maybe i can dream on about gg VJC.
dream dream dream.

isnt life all about dreaming.
you can dream that you have this wonderful life.
but you dont.
you can dream that you have someone who'll always be there for you.
but seriously, you're on your own.
you can dream to be totally smart and pretty.
but you're dumb and fuggly.

actually.
YOU dont have to care about anything i say really.
you dont have to bother or.... or.... orr.... i dont know.
maybe all this was just hallucinations.
i'll always be there for you to turn to.
but you'll turn the other direction.
you'll get yourself someone much better.
than this retarded.

i'm gonna learn to..
cry on tissues.
hug my pillows.
talk to papers.
lean on walls.
depend on non-living things.
den to hopelessly look for someone out there.



i gave away barney.

i got pulled to the comp.
cos!
they having dunno some auction thing.
(the seventh month thing i think)
and its really loud and infuriating.
plus my radio got taken away by my brother
so i had no music to cover up that loud nervey voice.
end up in brother's room.
with the computer right in front of me.
CANNOT RESIST lah. haha.

bahh. it's amazing what these HORMONES can do lah.
it boils me up!
makes me CAPRICIOUS. lol.
two weeks to english prelims so let me flaunt okay!
blog blog blog.
one day i'll get as chim as yingwah!
anyway. as i was doing work.
i got angry, sad, grumpy, crazy, happy, tired all in like seconds.
disgusting.
but i manage to somewhat do some work this weekends!
okay.
geog agriculture
ss: good governance
amath AHS paper1&2
chemistry: acids, bases, salts, redox reactions
physics: transformers, DC motor, electromagnetism, radioactivity, AC Generator.

COOL RIGHT.
lol. mummy got back today.
somehow she made me stressed. =x
daddy got really irritating cos he was once again being stubborn and ignorant.
like being irritating on purpose to make others angry.
mummy bought him stuffs and he dinn bother to look.
so unappreciative!
mummy bought me two abercrombie polo t-shirts.
which is some reindeer brand.
but she so in lah.
she bought purple and this yellowish-green colour!
i like =D plus lots of snacks.
woots!

two weeks till prelims!
and not halfway through.

i've watched people around me hurt.
doing things. all for... love.
i saw them drop tears.
resort to stupid acts.
drink.
slash.
saw their lifes ruined.
but one thing.
smile bravely.

nothing much about MYSELF.
i'm gonna blog on everyone else.

firstly.
EUGENIA DARLING.
heh. (: i hope all the birthday stuffs went fine!
your presents are like uber sweet (:
i'm so proud of you.
i know somehow deep inside you're hurt.
but still! you went on brave and smiling.
and laugh at my retardedness.
eugenia so pro! (:
so anyhow. you must still continue smiling okays!

then comes foolish yingwah.
okay lah. i know you have your morals and everything.
your beliefs and way of doing things.
but just want you to know that...
SOME people really arent worth your love and care.
and as much as you may want it that way.
things may not turn out right.
but dont look on the negative side.
cos true enough.
everyone's lucky in their own ways.
dont depress yourself further okay.
just concentrate on studying.
hahaha. and stop drinking lah.
it's not gonna solve anything.
drinking isnt the way out.
learn to be a little more ignorant!

who else! manda and xiang`er seems fine.
either that or they're hiding things!
haha. one day xiang`er will find her perfect one.

and...
best friend. but they're perfectly fine already lah.
just stay "faithful". hahahaha. =x

NOW.
about me myself and i.
i'm freaking retarded lah!
eeeyer. so malu-ating.
boo.
stop laughing at me okay.
he made us feel the pain.
but somehow.
we're willing to put ourselves through that torment again.
foolish love.
NO MATTER WHAT.
RETARDED IS HERE TO MAKE YOU SMILE.