hahs.
im backk.
hmmm... back to saddening days.
i feel the moodiness in me againn.
haha...
got 2 msges.
two. yes..
one from my cousin. stupid msg.
another from my fren who wanted to know when to play pool.
haha...
no one tagged my board.
my friendster also nothing.
so this six days is like nothing.
haha.
i swear i'd rather be at camp forever.
booo. sighh. forget it.
dun wanna say anything more.
sad-

you treated me like i was never there.
you treated me like u never cared.
what excactly was i in your eyes?
nothing...
nothing you'll ever see.

haha. ok. i shall blog since eugenia isnt done with the stuffs.
was searching on articles, quotes, stories and picutres for the CE board on responsibility and perseverence la. do until i wanna die... and i have no idea how i'm doing up the board..
bleahhh. camp's in 2 days time.
i still havent gotten my stuffs yet. booo!
anywayy... i wanna complainn.
BIO SUCKS!
gotta memorise and memorise..
and i dun understand a thing in the first chap.
cells? eeks. den the rest jus doesnt get into my head.
i can just fail the test.
i dinn touch on my amath oso.
only did like test corrections. bleahh.
yes. i can fail dat too.
haiyaa. tmr got tuition.
arghhhhhhh!

haha. dunno what i'm doing larr.
eeeks. think im doing stuffs i shouldnt have been doing. boo.
anywayys. next week's camp already.
and poor eugenia's sick..
take care gall!! ((:
forgot what i wanted to say. so i shall blog later.. if i haf the time.. hees. cyaa...

this valentines day...
i got NO flowers.
NO stuff toys. whatsoever.
jus one months supply of chocs.
that got attacked by the stupid ants in NUS. haha.
thanks to all that gaf me pressies :)
went esplanade. yayy.
no hao xi wann. unfunn.
regret doing stuffs for them mann.
they like dun appreciate de. bleahh.
yepp. saw alot of couples.
den was judging on their pei-ness and all. hahhx.
later was walking back to the mrt.
on the bridge thingyy. yeahh.
i like bumped into this person.
i go right, he also go right.
i go left he also go left kinda thingg.
damn funny la.. heees....
anywayy. vday was kinda siann.
jus glad i dinn hadta go home early after all.
wheee. loners rawkks. haha. rightt.

anywayy. got back my amath test.
13/40. how great right.
like shit larr. i'll just fucking fail all my tests.
arghh. damn alot of things to do...

yeahh. i thot i was just so perfectly okay like this.
but the same thoughts keep coming back to me.
i just cant stop thinking about.... "it"
and i come up with a fake pretence that woww. it doesnt affect me at all.
bleahh. is this me?

trying to hide away from the truth.
to avoid the feeling of being hurt again.
does it help? when i bottle things up.
but there's no one to really talk to anyway.
or am i negelcting the pple around me.
cos im not even trying to tell anyone anything
sighh. is this me?

i run away from everything.
i wanna escape.
change my life.
brainwash me or something. eekks.
and im not coping with my studies at all.
whats happening to me larr. arghh...

help.

haha.. many of you would haf known already that i had a weird dreamm.. on. thuRs nite.. freaky kaees!! i dreamt of me lesb with sarah ho! hahas. dunno lar... so scaryy!! =/ haha... aniwaee. fridays concert was really.. ok.. not really. but quite screwed. i mean... we were bored.. n cedars concerts used to be soooo funn. remembered sec1's concert was like sooo... wonderful la. haha. den dis time is like errr.... haha.. dunno larr. heckk. din manage to go back to Rosythh. sad. but nevermind. the tchers will miss me! haha... doubt they still rmb la. lols. wheee... den night time had reunion dinner. yeahh. relatives came over... guess wad? my guitar string snapped! haha. cos i was anyhow tuning it. ooops. my fault bahh. hees.

dis morn woke up at 630++ went gym. jogged. den 9 left for grandma hse n den to frann hse. n wait for pple visit. yayy. dis yr angpao like quite little. but nvm. haha... tmr visiting.. whee... nothing to do le. tink i missed out on loads of stuff. but sort of cannot be bothered to blog le. haha... i haf my diary! x) ohhh... went friendster surfing.. realised alot of things.. why was i soo foolish? sighh.. n im still hopelessly thinking.. eeeks..

yes...
so finally i settled everything.
and im glad it's over.
everything.... wheee!! haha...
therefore i shall never ever be sad.
i shall always be happy. haha.
nonsense.
anyway... im not gonna regret whatever ive done.

ohh. n i havent blogged for a very long time! teehees
vday coming le worr. bet everyone has their on dates la... hehhs.
thot of what to do for everyone le... *grinss*
yayy. cant wait.
later gonna play tennis.
but it looks like its gonna rain.
so irritating.
evrytime i wanna play, it'll rainn. bleahh.
plsss dun rainn!!!

okays. ytd went towning with eugenia n hc.
saw fia nat n leeza. hehes.
bought a shirt n a pants la.
tats all. lalala.
im eugenia's fashion consultant.yay..
blah blah blah.

ohh. ive got nothing to say le. hahaa..
whee.. going off.
byebye

i keep thinking and thinking..
sighhh!!!
i wanna not be mentioned about you at all for now.

i cant study at all..
fuck
its killing me.
you cant imagine how slack i am.
i only read my chem textbook among the rest.
geog oso. cos of tests.

anywayy... the stupid halmet is damn stinkyy.
can the school pleasee do sumthing bout it??

and tmr got auditions.
my stupid brother is so arghh!!
he dun wan teach me the cheer la..
how irritating is that!!! hurmphh!!!!!

Sighh..