yess.. i changed my skinn.
its kinda... here and dere la.. hahas.
the poem is the one mr tan gaf me to put up on the board.
teeeheess... written for the tsunami victims. yepp yepp!!!

wondering how pple are doingg...
hmmmm....
haha.... hope everythings great la..
aiikks. whateverr... hhahhs..
gotta finish up with the class board..
but got no freaking ideas.
sobb sobb!!
n no one's helping me.
sighh sighh.
i lurve my diaryy sooo much now.
its filled with poems.. haha.

OH YA!! last night arr!!!
out of the blue suddenly got gastric pain la!!
i was dying cann! den my whole family was asleep.
i dunn noe what to do la..
haha.. but i can take care of myself kaees!!
i put medicated oil and take po chai yi! yayyyssz!!
denn i drank warm water too!!
n i renn in bed.. i am soooo independent!! yumms*
but i felt soo.. i dunno what.
like hopeless.. no one der...
hrmmm.... sighhs. n den my hands were cold and shivering..
was like damn scared. hehhs.
kk.. not interested rite. yeahhhh...

ihategoingtoschool.
ihatethefeelingofbeingalone.
ihateitwhenimignored.likeimthrownaside.
ihatebrokenpromises.
dunsaywhatyoudunmean.
andstopplayingwithmyheart.

hmmm.... busy week.
loads of test.
chemistry n e math on wed.
geog today..
den had competitions too.
lost to ij-TP.
but won today's match. (STC)
some things kinda happened too...
it just happens so fast larr.
haiix.

der's nothing i can do.
and der's nothing i wanna do.
except sit here and stare.
jus waiting.... and waitingg....

sighh... i guess this is the way things are.
i should haf known...
or maybe i already did.
yet i still let myself foolishly fall.
could i ever be the one?

boo! it happens again and againn.
i give up le larr.
wheee. and i dun need nobody else anymore.
i'll lurve myy friends.
my dearest darling friends.
hahahh. sumone gotta be there for me somehoww.
and so things cant be changed.
i thought it could.
i made a mistake.
swear i'll not repeat it ever againnn.

i lurve myself...
i love[d] you...

i wanna complain!!!
we arranged to meet at 8 at heartland...
and i was dere right on the DOT.
but dose pple all woke up late!
and made me wait so long. x(
who was the one who said "dun late arr..."
hmph hmphh! dun care...
next time shall be MY turn to make you guys wait. hohohos.
anywayy! went to the dunno wher. geylang. spore bball centre or sumthing.
yeahhs. i thot could like see sum chio bus. but dun haf larr!!
only got one cute... yepps.
the match was ok. i was bored!! stuck der in that numbed position.
arrhhh...... and den it was over.
dats when i realised it was probably a mistake to follow demm.
i was soooo bored.. dying.
den went ken's house.
and died der.... rachel n jingwen came alone. yerpps.
later went back to j8 cos they had tuition at parklane.
was suppose to follow dem but dinn. sowwiex.
thot i go home better.
den arrr...... i was at hougang pt.
and dis hc and eugenia decided that we shud all go j8 and meet.
yes. so i went to j8 to kens hse to j8 to my hse n den to j8 again...
wow??
hahahaha. n den it was like so funn. so farnie ((:
did a teeny weeny bit of studyingg.
den went home.
bought the top up card.
but my M-Card aint working!!!! >.<
soo irriating. sighh sighh-
wheeee! thats all lar.
the rest you dun haf to know...
we haf sumthing up our sleves.
and im a bad bad girl =x

i keep fallingg!!
first was the rock wall.
den i fell again yesterday!!
hahas. shall elaborate.
hadta climb 3m of the rock wall without belays fer PE.
the rocks were like small n small!
den i climb until dunno wher, fall.
landed on my toes so my big toe kinda hurts.
abit.
n den ytd.
the bbq!!! der was like this drain(step in) dat was same colour as the floor.
dinn see it la. so like. yeahh. tripped.
but din sprain my leg. jus landed on side of my left leg in the drain..
and knees on the floor!! hehes.

lets all fall down.
and pick ourselves up!!!

life's full of falls.
but we gotta get up.
by ourselves.
and continue...
our journey.
our life journey...

sshh.. im blogging!!! :)
hahahaha. ive got the brain-not-working syndrom...
my math is screwed up.
i hardly know how to do all the questions.
and every qns i do. der's sure to be a mistake.. BLEAHH.
and i keep writingg 21 as 12 or 12 as 21 and blah blah blahh. save me!!!
i dun understand a thing!! chem oso. physics so-so. grrr.
n dey're testS up.. sighhh. :(

okayss.. lets seee... brenda failed her fitness test.
i ran 2km in 13.24 min.. that suckss. seriously. eeks.
i was having like breathing difficulties. den my heart was pain, i dunno why.
ok. whatever.
i wanna do somethingg. sighh. but dunno how to.
=x n im... sighh... missing the wrong person and thinking of the wrong person.
urhhhks!

n denn. i realise my eng tcher "picks" on me...
she's always asking me questions.
as in like.. u noee. when der's one that needs to be answered la. sighhhh.
n Eugenia never gets called!! unfair ritee. hrmphh.
btw. i love the sunyanzi song.. :))

whee. nationwide 1 min silence?
i doubt so.... the pple in the park were playingg.
swinging. motorbikes zooming behind.
and auntie n uncle even said they din hear the sirenn.
haha. okayss. n they laffed at like evry abasador der.
there's one with huge ears. ya. and their accent and alls.
plus one of the ministers was dosing off?? hehhx.
blah blah blahh.
after that went to heartland.
i saw waichung!!! =x
arhhhhhhhhhh.... den wanted to buy track pants n shou ce but cannot find.
eeeyeeerr.
okay. whatever. haha... byebye n takkaire.

jus got home.. =x ok. nt really. abt half an hr ago...
my mother gaf me 20 bucks for "working" hahaha... easy money.. :)
went ps to meet them. den got kinda pissed.
sighh.i was like fuming... ok. den wenta bugis.
met justine n ken. blah blah blahh.
manage to buy their pressies. :))
den slowly all left...
went to esplanade...
asked. but still no results la. sighh.
i dunno what to doo!! maybe i shud just take things as it is la....
ok. den went to dis sushi restaurant.
had chasoba and salmon maki.
the food there no standard wann. eeee.
but who cares. haha.
arhhhhhhhh! its our day.but i din get anything from you.. sighh. i wish.

sighh... currently at mother's office shenton way
helping her tidy up.. she better pay me. lol...
but ill bet itll be like lunch or sumthingg.
i got damn alot of scratches la... sighh. haha.
anywayy. her office has dis really really nice view of suntec n alls.
can see the catherdral and ESPLANADE ok...
plus suntec.. n that screen thingy in front..
ohhh... and the SINGAPORE RIVER too....
the fact that can see ESPLANADE already proves how BEAUTIFUL and WONDERFUL the scenery is.
nvmm... in going to my darling later... (esplanade)
yeahh... hahas. hurrayy!! *grins*
with pple. and yes... im gonna stay der for as long as i can.
i love you esplanade!!
hahhaha. -.-

Goodbye To You lyrics
Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry

Counting the days that pass me by
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fallI will lie awake
You're my shooting star

hmmm.. it is hard to let go.
and hard to start ur life anew.
i feel so selfish.. its like i want but i dun want.
but but... haix. dunno what i doing....
wish i could mean as much as you do to me.
been swinging i guess. sorry.
had sum times i soooo feel like crying. i dunno why.
eeks. WHYY la!!!! grrr....
i really wanna know the truthh. sighh.
-confidin to diary-
bleahh. byebye.

starting to not like summ tchers.. hmmm...
anywayy. who cares. ok. lets all hate school. haha.
went out after school today with nigel n ken.
cos eugenia wasnt free. hrmmm...
wanted to go buy their pressies wan la..
but i didnt!!!! cant shop with guys lor...
they're super nt interested.. so im going out to buy againn.
this time on my own i guess. yeppss...
okiee. so we went to orchard library.
disgusting pple. took mags to read n all. yeahh. haha. crappified.
den went to esplanade.
I LOVE ESPLANADE!
teehees. okiee. so like ken met justine.
den she made him leave cos i was der.
err.. den i msged her as ken and all. yeahh.
went to terrace at first. den it was blardee hot.
so went to merlion der...
sat and talked.
hahahha. realised that the railing stuff had SALT on it.. =/
stayed till about 630.
took train to marina bay cos it was freaking crowded. human jam. haha
den arr... in the train arr... dis really fat guy sat beside me.. and iwas like squashed in btwn la!!! haha. den that fat guy was like sleeping and SNORING. yes...
den there was like this whistling thingg. n we thot it was frm him. hahahah. damn farniee la!!! *grins* but ended up it was sum other uncle whistling.. lol.
okiee. so got home real late.. like 8 plus. uh huhhss...
i shud get on with life.

sighh... i suddenly feel so alone and i badly wanna go to like... the BEACH! grrrr... can sumone just help me? eeeeeeks!!! i dunno what to do la. i cannot even express my emotions. its like i dunno what... am i exactly happy sad perfectly fine or wadd?? and den my head is like full of questions. and whenever i jus dazee i'll be like WHY WHY WHYY??? haiss.

first day of school. i do want a new life. argh. anyway.. yes. 3/I. i kinda like all the tchers except for. ahemm* amath. den probably chi n PE too cos its gonna be. i tinkk. ahemm... bleahhhs. i got sooo much work undone i tell youuu.

sigh. and i dunno what to do!!!

decided to blog for fun againn. and do sum dedication stuff againn.
cos nigel tempted me to. haha. its soooo tempting. haha.. arhh. wadeva. lol

Year 2004
i know i did change...
i was thinking of sec 1 and den now....
i used to be sumone who cared alot.
now i dunn. probably cos he taught me so.
sec 2? got closer to the o-rians....
ups and downs for the two of us.
i was in state of depression before.
not now anymore. i tink im happier.
at least happier den before. haha. yepps.
new year resolution?
-lose weight
-buy more stuffs
-mre frenx?
-less misunderstandings?
-less lazy, study harder... blah blah blah...
-never ever slash
-no bottling up.
the rest wud be in myy diary.. hees..

dedications
who stayed with me throughout the year??
my "bros/sis/..."
Shawn's the only survivor.. haha...
from my overwhelming list to only one survivor...
wher's jT? samuel oh? jansen? wc? blahh blahh blahh....
plus kfeb. yepps. lurve ya all. 2/o-rians too?? :)
oh damn it. now im lazy to blog. hahaha.... cya when im boreddd again. :p