i am...
disappointed.

maybe i was being too petty and everything.
but what the heck.
we just felt like we didnt belong there.
anyhow.
i still wanna apologise if i spoilt anybody's mood.
doubt so though.
think.
when did you notice we were gone?

sigh..
but its nobody's fault.

next! stupid brother is damn blind.
he actually dinn see me when i was right in front of him.
mann.

den! a disgusting friend.
i cant believe how idiotic he is lah.
so what if you can just like switch "partners" whenever you want.
den just go around pissing pple off and dont give a shit of others feelings.
you heartless womanizer!
stop putting words into our mouths.
stop acting like as if you're king of the world.
stop thinking we like you.
WE DONT.
not a single bit.
im like super super disappointed and irritated and pissed with you lah. ass.
you'll never get anywhere in life.
so much for thinking you've changed and become a better man.
somehow i always make wrong conclusions.
you're gonna be a lonely old man.
you can rot in your bed and no one 'll bother.
one day i'll pour kerosene over you and burn you.

anger makes me chao ah lian.
yucks.



now im stumped.
i dunno what to do.
argh.

maybe studying would be a much better choice.
i could just study day and night.
study study study.

$10 for such disappointment.
$20 for chicken cutlet fish and chips and waffle.
getting ourselves stuffed and vomit.

i walked to school in the rain and i walked back home in the rain.
if only it rained everyday.
and hide that glaring sun.
everything'll be gloomy and cold.
you could stay in your loved one's warm embrace.

where's mine?

i'll never be the first you'll think of.
i'll never be the one who'll get your care.
nor your love.

time's running out.
so i better get started alr.
so do you! (:
went to grandma hse just now.
This relative of mine.
brought her kid over.
angmoh husband.
she's really pretty lah.
esp her eyes.
but she's uber active okays.
lol.
anyway.
SMILE.
as always.

appreciate what you've got.

you dont know it.
but you're lucky.
and not everyone is as lucky as you are.

brother is so mean to me.
i wanna cry OUT LOUD.
boooo BROTHER.
stop rawr-ing!
BROTHER BULLIES ME.
grrr.

and brenda's needs to study!
once again.

today is such a boring day. BOOOOO.
sigh. i dont like.
maybe you all should constantly remind me that prelims are coming.
so i'll study hard.
cos i got no mood.
bahh.

i'm watching idol results now!
haha. damn high. HADY's safe! Jon's safe! Joakim's safe!
GRINS-
lol. okay. im abit mad today.
cos alot of things happen lah.
so exciting! hahaha.
first i spilled potassium what? chromate? all over the table. haha.
den i use my hand to wash the table lah.
den the stupid purple solution stain my hand.
it looked gross can!
haha. like i went to dig shit out of the toilet bowl or something.
my nails hands all stained brown lah. hahaha.
so i decided to pour nitric acid on my hand.
you know like how we clear the stain off our test tubes.
i thought it'd wokred at least.
but it didnt! hahah.
but in the end. ms chng told me to soak it in iron sulphate.
heh. and iron sulphate itches.
but surprisingly i dinn itch! haha.
okay lah. maybe abit.
and and and.
ahhh. dowan blog alr.
byebye!

i'm watching idol results now!
haha. damn high. HADY's safe! Jon's safe! Joakim's safe!
GRINS-
lol. okay. im abit mad today.
cos alot of things happen lah.
so exciting! hahaha.
first i spilled potassium what? chromate? all over the table. haha.
den i use my hand to wash the table lah.
den the stupid purple solution stain my hand.
it looked gross can!
haha. like i went to dig shit out of the toilet bowl or something.
my nails hands all stained brown lah. hahaha.
so i decided to pour nitric acid on my hand.
you know like how we clear the stain off our test tubes.
i thought it'd wokred at least.
but it didnt! hahah.
but in the end. ms chng told me to soak it in iron sulphate.
heh. and iron sulphate itches.
but surprisingly i dinn itch! haha.
okay lah. maybe abit.
and and and.
ahhh. dowan blog alr.
byebye!

okays. i'm finally here to blog.
3 WOW days.
friday was DEVASTATING.
yesterday was CRAZY.
today was retarding. haha.

FRIDAY.
we went to watch pirates.
okay. we pleaded with mrs chew to let us leave remedial early.
somehow we managed to. (:
but we rushed and rushed.
manage to catch the show.
missed the front part though.
and the stupid angmoh NEHNEH me. BOO.
best friend had to sit on the floor cos some bitched took out seats lah.
eeew. okay.
after that we went to shop.
for my bro's present! haha.
i was being fickle as usual.
the shirt was darn ex lah.
and i'm BROKE.
went xb's house.
TERRIBLE decision.
i should have just went home straight.
played mahjong.
i got my first hu! hahaha (:
and den the CLIMAX.
xb burnt my hair.
-.-

SATURDAY.
xb was suppose to bring me somewhere to cut hair but he ps-ed me.
nice little yw as usual came down to pei me!
n best friend too!
she was late so i walked around wisma myself.
they came.
and we "spy-ed"
just wanna say sorry cos i wasn't feeling too good den.
it was a sudden moody thing. i dunno.
nvm. dont ask okay.
went to cut my burnt hair.
JARON!!! ahh.
cute Jaron. oh man. i miss him.
he's super adorable lah.
haha. too cute for me to resist. mann!
but he hit me three times.
haha. but he sayang me! lol. =D
yw's green.!
jaron jaron jaron!
yummy! haa.
CAFE CARTEL was craziness.
we were drunk on water.
damn crazy lah.
somehow. we just felt drunk.
i mean. yah. nvm. you all wont understand. haha.
went sgoon for bro's bday.
played pool.
till 12. n home!
(:

TODAY.

retarded.
i should have wore my school uniform lah.
so dumb of me.
i was alone in the morning.
and dinn "dare" approach pple.
got rejected alot of times lah.
arhh. but i sitll manage to sell all of them out!
heh. xb came at 11 plus.
made me follow him buy some stuffs.
and left me with the heavy crumpler bag.
made my arm all red and sore k.
i dunno why i was so "nice" today.
am seriously broke.
yet i bought a present for adrina.
i donated $2 to my juniors.
what am i doing to my money lah.
i forgot i owe amanda $11?
i dunno.
oh no. no money. poots.

best friend came at 2plus.
at least he bought me a drink.
so he's nice today (:
but he smoked.
so he's bad.
but he came down from church at bukit timah to pei me.
so he's afterall still nice.
haha. he tried selling but failed.
awwwww. but the last one was sold by him!
now i'm aching like SHITES.
dying.
tmr still got listening.
bahh..


you savvy? (x

i went to the doc today.
all to hear that.
that growth in my eye.
is NOTHING. -.-
RACHEL SEE LIED TO ME.
haha. but at least the doctor was nice enough to not charge me!
so we ended up going to the pet shops nearby.
went to vist my pom!
but it was GONE already lah.
sold. *poots.
i caught another dog though.
the while jack russel.
actually all was cute lah.
but the jack russel was the first to come to me!
heh. and it was the only one that did not TRY to bite my finger!
dream dream dream.
get me a dog to keep me company pretty pretty please? hee.
went to find snowy too.
but she was sent to the vet alr. sighh.
we passed by this bird shop.
haha. and we freaked out.
cos there like TONNES of birds everywhere.
n it just felt like they were gonna fly anytime!
and you know.
brenda is afraid of birds.
but EVERYONE was scared okays!
lol. (:

LATER.
yingwah came my house.
and i opened my peach breezer.
I TELL YOU AH.
yingwah's so mean lah.
she drank finish my breezer okay!
she is the most irritating person i've ever met!
lol.
there was only a bit left.
so i gave her to drink some.
AND SHE DRANK DOWN THE WHOLE THING!
haha. evil her.
im gonna kick her ass.
somehow we got really high after that.
she was talking to her XB.
and i was left alone singing stupidly to like TEMPERATURE and WE'LL BE BURNING.
and HIPS DONT LIE. and all the weird songs.
AND SHE IGNORED ME!
so i ended up calling brother up.
cos somehow. i cant approach best friend.
bahh.
anyway.i went crazy with brother.
but brother so WOODBLOCK lah.
whole day dota dota dota. GAWSH.
so he ignored me too.
VERY SAD.
in the end. i high-ed with myself.
did my physics.
blahh.

yingwah played pranks on pple!
IM NOT DRUNK LAH. please.
abit high maybe. but NOT DRUNK. haha.

anyway.
the thing burst alr.
hahahaha.
so dumb lah.


i read your blog.
i feel so.. stranger.
do i ask you if you're alright.
or am i to not know.
what am i really?
nothing.

whee!
school kind of makes US high.
haha. and den when it comes to the weekend.
we all get moody.
WHY. cos we ran out of energy.
but i love them.
heh.

BODY BALANCE.
is quite fun actually.
i like to do the whole balancing thing!
and the tai chi actions.
woots!! but its damn tiring lah.
but helpful. (:

we're gonna set up OUR blog soon!
await await! heh.

im just done with my eggs!
haha.
its abit salty i think.
but its nice okay!
yumm yumm!
you guys so lucky lah!
hais.
anyway.
i better get some rest!
i wont have time to sleep later already!
yawns!
finals should be at 3am.
timing so in the middle.
so wrong.
hais.
FRANCE!
ZIDANE!
-.-

there are three things you can do about a problem.
to dread over it or to get it done with or IGNORE.
and brenda's lucky cos she's the ability to IGNORE.
yupp. IGNORE.
im kind of waiting for nothing.
there's nothing else i can do what.

have you EVER SEEN.
a girl.
carrying an umbrella for a guy.
and getting all wet herself?
hahaha.
that's me.
we went to ntuc lah.
den it rained like crazy and we only had 3 umbrellas.
mummy took one herself.
i took the other so my bro can carry all the stuff and i shelter him.
hahah. (: im a goood sister.
today was like BOOOOO.
i did almost nothing.
except aimlessly read chemistry.
woots. yingwah yingwah.
we can both be screwed together.
haha.
seems like all of us are moody.
yingwah is moody.
manda is moody too.
xianglin is observably moody but she hasnt admitted it.
and me.
it's the time of the month for me to be moody. heh.
but tmr.
i'm gonna make everyone high!
and make everyone feel XINGFU.
cos i'm making BREAKFAST!
for all my loved ones. =D

i wanna talk about last night's match.
was it me or was the ref KAYU again?
anyway. portugal ah!
anyhow hit in goal for germany.
tskk. PETIT ahh. so blur. aiyoo.
i cant believe my cousin is so zhun.
3-1!!! goshh.
im staying up for tonights match again!.
this time i dunno who's gonna company me.
amanda's not watching.
(she's only interested in portugal you see.)
heh heh.

yesterday we talked.
throughout the whole match we were just like.
ohmygod. christiano ronaldo!!
or...
hey. this guy's kind of cute.
or.
oliver kahn's damn ugly i cant take it!
or.
(laughing at the portugal coach)
or.
the ref's damn kayu lah! so blind!
and at the end of the match.
we were both waiting for one common thing.
to see CHRISTIANO RONALDO!
but they didnt show the portugese at all lah.
damn sad. haha.

tonight. better be a good match.
THE BATTLE OF THE AGEING TEAMS.

im currently awaiting for.
movie-ing: pirates of the carribean.
kbox
SHOPPING.

sighh. brenda's gotta start getting hardworking.!

i wont deny.that really. i dunno what to do now.
to talk to you or to not?
and recently.
nights have been boring.
i told you conferencing would become a dependence!
boo.
sometimes all we want.
is just to be needed like how much we need you.

today went to ahma's house.
i ate like durains and mangosteens.
i feel fat now. like always.
plus ytd's bbq! i ate quite alot lah.
grr. and im only gonna start eating more.
anyways. went to pet shop.
cos cousin giving away her little rabbit...
AWWW.
there were tonnes of hamsters okay!
cute but not so cute afterall.
haha. i dont like small crawly stuffs.
i only like dogs! heh.
and so i can only start dreaming.
and wishing.
for as long as eternity.
to own a puppy.
sigh!
den at least i'll have company everytime! hrmm.

im back with no answers again.

oh. and mummy thinks i have a army boyfriend. heh!

misty!!
hah. feeling.... headache-y.
bahh.
i cant study anymore.

i realised.
some pple just can express themselves properly.
and they just anyhow say stuffs.
that doesnt make sense at all?
den they try to act damn big.
and flaunt their "fluent" eng.
RIGHT.

boo. this is getting kind of bad.

anw. school today was quite high.
XIANGLIN got horny during amath lessons!
so i pei he with ta.
we're the HORNET family.
haha. (:
i love them! yumms.
PE was tiring lah!
tmr will be muscle-ache day!!
yawns.

WHERE IS MY DINNER!

dont take pple's memories.
and make it yours.
memories are only meant for TWO.

okay. let me trying getting to what i used to be last time.
blogging about everything that's happening.
blog a really really long post. haha. (:
I"LL TRY. yes. TRY. heh.

i got restless in studying already.
it's soo torturing okays!
let's see what i've done throughout.
2 chapters of chemistry.
oh. and NOTHING ELSE? =\ bahh.
i ended up on the tv.
watched CARS.
couldnt get a thing they were saying lah.
the vcd so lousyy. x(

this morning.
i woke up.
with TERRIBLE NEWS.
BRAZIL LOST lah.
im DISPARAGED.
but portugal got through!!
heh.=D
i stayed up for their match last night okays.
basically cos we were all on conference.
me, yw, xb, amanda and ken!
apologies to xianglin for not getting her in.
SORRY GIRL! =x
okay. so on the phone.
i was going crazy over ronaldo.
while they were crapping away..
xb was drinking and he saved none for me.
first manda was sleeptalking.
and den it was yingwah.
ltr xb was cooking what charkwayteow. heh.
ken was busy playing his game.
AND I WAS WATCHING MY MATCH.
i was the only one supporting PORTUGAL.
HAHAHA. i won. yay. =x
so after the match.
it was dexter laboratary.
comical lah. bahh.
in the end we all went to sleep bcos everyone was tired.
except me! hahah. hecks-
it lasted 2hrs anyway. madness.

the past few days have been devastating for you.
but you're gonna be strong and make it through right.
cos we're gonna be here always. to make you smile!! =D
heh. and i'll always be there to ask you to shut up and knock your head.

it's quite amazing how we can get so hurt sometimes.
okay. we give you our blessings.
just hope you please dont take things for granted.
it's easy to break our hearts.
dont make it like you never bothered or cared.
our hearts arent there for you to tear and rip apart.
scars stay okay.
you inhumane jerks.