im practically eating down fats.
and all the cheese in the pizza is making me damn jalat.
eee.
fats fats fats! anyway.
i have no mood to blog now.
jus wanna tell you something.
you gotta be strong k!
i'll be there by you.
im not good with words.
so yahh.
i know you can do it.
alrights?
loveyou.

this blog is being invaded once again
woooot xtime fly so fast huh
school's starting in like 3 days time!
how sad huhh
and yeahh
im abosolutely confident la dar
u noe wad i meann ! x)
right now ur probably still asleep!
so this is like a suprise or sth? i duno =x
ok anw
brenda rocks
and yes like duhh
larry rocks too
x)
ciaos

wheew. ok im finally on blogger.
after all the photo editing and everything! hmmm.
i gave up on friendster anyway. the whole testimonials bubu.
but nvm! i have no testi to accept anyway! haha.
so i not that pek chek lah. (x but i owe ALOT of pple testimonials.
i'll get that done soon. YUPP. hees-

i saw my tagboard!
and we all loving each other so much lah.
its weird how come we suddenly feel.
you knoww. haha.
i cant wait for school to re-open now!
YINGWAH.
got hor fun to eat le! hahaha. (:
and my ice tea with EVERYTHING.
ohmygod. SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL.
and larry demands for my timetable. hahaha.
guess we'll meet each other less. but nvm! (:
i must be appreciative of whatever and not ask for more. hehe.

today! i received a very nice present.
and 3 very nice letters.
ok. 1 is EXTREMLY precious. haha. (x
im super happy lah.
their present is damn cute lah.
i love it. (:
heh. will post up the picture here! (:
so meaningful.
its making me smile!
im gonna display it at some very nice place! (:
which reminds me that my room is an entire mess.
hate. haiis-
anyway. ive got 3 days at home.
so i'll get evrything done.
including studying.
im super not ready for school. goshh.
you must jiayou for your exams kaee!
xD

haha. so weird lah. i was suppose to blog ages ago.
but i got so involved in conversations.
because two of my other very close friends talked to me today!
and its damn sad that he's not online cos we're all talking about that. hmmm.
everyone seems to be... happy. in a way. i dunno why too.
girlA has boy. BoyA has girl. and they're all in love.
HAPPY FOR THEM. ((:
brenda is a good friend. i love you! wheee.

LAST NIGHT'S CONVERSATION.
i got really high i dunno why.
was trying to improve on my handwriting.
so i started saying nonsensical stuff out and den writing them down.
wait till you see those pieces of doodly paper lah.
damn funny. hehe.
i got ENLIGHTENED.
and i enlightened them on stuff too.
i realised im unapproachable in a way.
everyone just thinks i have very bad moods.
den they'll not dare to talk to me.
i tell you once again.
I LOVE TO STONE.
and im NOT a depressed kid. (:
heh. and den i found out that maybe ive been neglecting the two of them recently.
maybe i dinn realise it myself. im really SORRY. ):
i WILL talk to you guys k. dont worry. school's re-opening so we can CRAP all day.
yay. what else. i forgot.
oh. and i got this msg from yingwah.
on cfc and larry changing our lives.
got really touched i dunno why. (:
i love them lah.
LOVE's in the airr! heh..

TODAY's events
i went for my mother's family day thing.
it was fun lah. the whole scene was comical.
cos each child was given the action city ball that has lights in it and looks really weird.
yeah. so every little kiddo was dancing around the hall playing around.
SUPER CUTE i tell you.
and every baby there was like.. faints
haha. i love babies lah.
they made me happy!
and i received so many hugs from them lahh! (x
jealous.
so it was nothing much. entertainment for the kids.
while we just stood around. hmmm.
den after that!
my mumm allowed me to go meet my FRIENDS.
i mean friend.
i mean boyfriend.
i mean... him. hahahha.
yeah. so i was at PS lah.
PS is boring. and i couldnt stay long
which was damn sad. but im contented already.
im not greedy! (:
SAW MY GBRO THERE TOO.
oh my godd lah. he dinn see me at first.
but i went to say hi anyway. i was being super nice den cos i even said hi to his friend debra.
and i said im brenda.
but she was really bored.
and so was my brother. hahahha. =x

okok. maybe i should end here.
loveisgood. haha.

When i thought love's lost its meaning,
you came around and changed everything.
There's nothing else i could ask for,
Each day im loving you more and more.

You've fixed my broken heart,
that was once torn apart.
You gave me the wings to fly,
to soar up to the sky.
No one i cherish more than you.
I just wanna hold your hand all the way through.

You brought happiness to my life.
Everything's perfect with you in the picture.
You've freed me from sorrows and woes.
And i wanna spend each day with you in the future.

i was suppose to blog last night. but we had conference instead and i was getting really bored online. teehees. (: so im gonna blog now!
yesterday was changi airport day.
and im, i mean, ok, WE are never gonna go changi again.
bcos its boring. and everything else.
there's nothing to do there lah. haha.
i managed to study 3 chapters of physics! (:
gave them their presents too. glad they liked it.
maybe i should have put in more effort to it. hmmm.
ANYWAYS. yahh. we talked. bout some stuffs.
i hope he's feeling okay... bahhs. i dont wanna get into the contents of my letter lah! haha.
and hopefully they'll get to know the whole situation.
and know that he's not at fault. >.<

NEXT.
i had a SUPER weird dream.
i dreamt of damn alot of weird stuffs.
like i bought a real-life living dog.
but the real dog was made of mogu kinda thing.
ahahaha.. and something else.
which i dunno why i dreamt of it in the first place.
NVM. forget it. (:

i love my darlingg! (:

alright.
the greatest person who ever live is bloggin right now
HAHAH
=x
ok brenda's blogged my blog
and i decided to blog hers too x)
hah
firstly
larry rock
x)

brenda's comp is like really LOUSY la!
cant press enter and all that
booo.
u guys shld get her a new 1 eh?
new yr is coming!
hinthint*
hah.
she doesnt even know wad movie she watched with me today la!
its a chinese tall STORY my dear girl!
and those pple are not as cute as me mannn
x]
how can they be compare to me la.
thats an insult to me !
haha.
anyway today was funn!
went towning with this lady here and we did almost everything that town could do!
spore shld have like new PLACES to explore mannn!
yupyup x)
brenda sometimes can be meann to me la!
haha okok most of the time shes like damm nice x)
at least to me!
it was fun today la!
and i cant wait for tmr girl!
though we'll be studying and all
but its stil gonna be FUN
x)
before i go i wanna say something too!
and brenda's smart enuf to figure it out!
ilovebrendatoh ! you're my reason for living dear! x)

ok. i almost died.
but i got saved anyway.
so i guess it's knownn.
hmmm. alrights..
anyway.
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
firstly. i gotta apologise if you received my msgs late yesterday.
my phone was bonkers! im sorry.
especially to you. ):
i guess i did have fun yesterday lah
hahaha. we had bbq. and our bbq "pit" is damn funny.
lol. i shall not elaborate. xP
i ATE okay.
oh oh. wait. guess wat lah.
my auntie said i LOST WEIGHT.
GRINS-
hahaha. yeah. ok. so i shall stick to my "diet"
back to dinner.
i had.. 1 sausage, 1 chicken wing, 1 mouth of spaghetti, 1 piece of beef, half a plate of salad. teeehees.
after that. we watched that stupid xmas show.
which was really boring. and den the parents demanded for entertainment again!
pouts-
and i had to embarass myself doing the numa numa dance.
ok. but i hid behind my cousin. lol. DAMN LAME LAH. faints*
my other two cousins did the whole beng VS bhangla convo. lol. (x
and den later my ANOTHER cousin sang xmas carols solo.
while i called him. (: but we only talked for 2min41s. cos my mama went to call me out. pouts-
nothing much happened after that. jus waited for midnight.
and time passed TOO FAST.
i had absolutely no time to call him and alls.
SORRY DEAR.
den we opened pressies. stayed for a while more and went home.
i msged for a while. and went to sleep after that.
got up really late this morning. 11? heh.
seriously dinn know it was so late lah. poo.
2 mre hrs and im gone.

i'm gonna do a LONG blog entry.
first im gonna mention xianglin's name.
HELLO XIANGLIN. (:
i love the two of them lah.
super touched canns.
what wonderful friends ive got.
i suddenly feel so xing fu canns. (x
but anyways. i love my boy the most. xP

xianglin, yingwah,dotdotdot came my house yesterday. we were suppose to PRACTICE. but i guess it was unsuccessful. haha. but i got to see my boy. n im glad. hees. and so we just slacked around. slacking is good. went down to play pool too! and this two pple. who were getting on yw's nerves. damn act lah. i mean. they DIAO-ed us. for wad? gosh. nvm. at least he beat them! (x PROUD of him. haha. yupp. den after that. went up to my house again. and saw my mum. den they went home. )= if only time went slower thens.
ok nvm. (: 81 plus plus more hours till tues.
ABSENSE MAKES THE HEART GROW FONDER!

i shall try to hurry since this xianglin so kanchiong. hrmm.

its xmas eve! unbelievable. im gonna get only one pres this year. cos i dinn manage to go get pres for myself. hmmm. but i already got the best gift ever! ahemm. yeah. but den jus now. was thinking of my past fifteen xmas lah. always at my maternal side. and xmas is like my FAVOURTIE time of the year. cos i'll get lots of pressies! haha. and we, the five cousins, always have to plan out a performance for the adults. like skits, dances. last yr we did AMERICAN IDOL. and i was florence lian. siann- haha. prev yr we did a cocktail booth. (x those fun days. this yr jus seems different lah. i dinn manage to shop for stuffs for anybody. not even my family. brenda's bad lah. nvm. i'll repay them. hees. (x

now. we gotta go get our two marvellous friends BIGG xmas presents.
im having brain cramp.
alwayslovingyou.

one LAST THING.

I AM SO NOT GONNA WHINE ANYMORE.


EEEEEEEEEEWWW.

ok. i'm gonna expand on my post yesterday cos that was pathetically short. I jus woke up lah. ok. actually maybe not. i woke up long long ago. dinn sleep well last night and i dunno why. =x ALRIGHTS.
i admit it was my fault that i didnt tell you two anything. but i dinn know how to say lah. like everytime you talked to me about him. i was like ya. i know. hah. but i cant go like. "actually i'm very close to him you know" I DUNNO! hah. or like "i'm larry's life-time entertainer and i think i love him and he loves me." hoho. that's so off. ok. and den about WEDNESDAY's K. i was seriously on the VERGE of confiding into you guys. but i decided to wait till yesterday! and and. i dinn know if all this was really what i thought it was. and i didnt want to think too much. if not i'll like hurt myself again lahs. but all this are excuses. so brenda's really really sorry. =( but now i'm telling you guys. i'm with him, he's with me. so XIANGLIN won the bet? lol.

WE went walking around the whole of city hall area yesterday. watched narnia but it was kinda boring ah. kingkong's still better. haha. our whole schedule got bonkers lah. cos we only manage to do TWO out of the arranged FIVE? haha. and lazyy was sick. ): esplanade kinda unsuccesful cos it RAINED.

oh. ive got porridge waiting for me! going off.
missyou. (:

today is myy day. today is better day than yesterday. today is my special day. (:

apologies to my two good friends!
sorry ahh. ):

lovehim.

i'll try my best to make this as long as possible.
on request lah. hah.
entertainer's gotta do her job. (x

alrights. today WE went to KBOX. to celebrate mavis's birthday. im writing this in paragraphs lah. haha. TRYING. it dinn turn out the way i EXPECTED it to. but we had lotsa funn. (x see. im happy. haha. IVE GOT NOTHING TO BLOG ABOUT LAH. =\ but i love today. hehs.

there's a weird convo going on now. oh. and i cant believe im gonna SKIP my last lesson with RAY! sighh. you gotta be thankful.

so i shall try to blog.
today was funn day.
cos i was hyper.
but i dinn manage to shop. blahhs.
and im tired now. =x

thing's have changed.
for the better i guess.

the charity show is nuts lah!
haha. i dinn watch the whole of it.
but i manage to catch CHAO MENG.
haha. old grasshoppers.
boobahhss.
i told myself to be happy and i did it lah
haha. im MAD now.
tmr's gonna be a long studying day. hah.
ive gotta finish up all my hw!
and tues kingkong..
i so need to shop.
ive got damn alot of angpao money to spend for xmas.
and i need to get evrythin by this week!
sigh.
lets rewind back one week.

sighh. i really dunno what to do now ah.
yw forgot about KB today. and i darent go alone lah.
i dun even know what to do with mah hair. argh.
my mum went out shopping already.
so what am i suppose to do! BOO.
i hate you for copying stuffs.
i changed my blogskin cos i got sick of chicken little
and all those
mai-ah-hi, ha, hu, haha.
BLAHH.
next week is free week.
i can go out whenever i want.
HURRAY!
and now. help me think of what i can get for myself for xmas.

i love frosty! (x

we went to K today.
partyworld aint that bad lah.
at least theyve got new songs.
but no shan hu hai.
and he se mao yi.
3 hrs was sooo not enough lah.
we anyhow press press press.
pres until dunno how many hundred songs. haha.
worse than kbox.
dinn manage to sing my eng songs.
nvm. NEXT TIME. (:
so k-ing was quite funn.
we went to take neoprints too.
damn sad lah.
my scanner not workingg!
sighh. bought a mng blouse too.
so did yingwah.
haha
went far east too.
yeah. gt home after that.
had depression.
abit.
was thinking of stuffs again!
tho i know im not suppose to.
but still.
its sad lah.
sad.. nvm.
after that i got really pissed with everything arnd me.
der was this disgusting woman who kept stepping on me and dinn say sorry.
boo.
and this man who blocked my way.
argh.

sometimes i jus dont wanna share.
i feel like its been stolen again.

ok. got back frm chalet ytd.
and i slept straight away lah.
i was like super gong already i tell you.
haha.
so i shall talk about 13th.
it was quite fun on the first day..
and played nice games.
i was in group1.
which was pathetically bad
cos we had zero for all the three games.
and i guess there were only three of us who were really enthusiastic abt the whole thing.
lol.
right. so the first game went all well cept burret(isit?) stood at the wrong place.
hmmm. second game was bad cos i dunno who the hell was huge grant?
hah. but overall it was quite fun lah. (:
wad else did we do?
we went to the beach was stoning was unsuccessful.
east coast beach aint as nice as pasir ris lah. hohs.
oh. 7-11 is SO far from costa sands man.
i now have walking-frm-costa-sands-to-seven-eleven phobia! hehhs.
whatever..
when we got back.
they were high.
kk. so we played abit.
and talked.
and shared.
and..
i learnt to be strong.
hoho.
and i stopped thinking.
and so that person shall die frm my heart.
and i will not brood over the past again.
cos its over.
and im a HAPPY GIRL. (:
and den ah.
fast forward to PERHARPS LOVE.
lame show.
ok.
it was kind of like a musical kinda thing.
but i slept whenever they started singing a song.
so i was lost throughout the whole movie.
bad cos they kept repeating the same stuffs.
and songs were damn funny lah.
hillarious.
REALLY.
you know what.
try drowning urself in the pool
and ur memories will flush back.
haha.
and type a full screen of "i hate you"s
when ur emotions are getting out of control...

nonsense.

i sent my brother off this morning.
TEKONG is good.
its like chalet.
and believe me. army's like nothing compared to the old days.
so relaxing liddat.
like our OAC camp. hah.
yeah.
its VERY alike our OAC camp.
and i jus love it when they do the whole "yes sir" "no sir" thing.
LOVE. but there's SOME among them that try to act seah.
shout so loud. nerdism.
yeah. army pple are good. =s
dunno wad i saying.
maybe next time i shud go army.
haha. maybe i could go enter army with lazy yr2007. hoho.
ok.

currently free from outings.
till sunday i'll be gg for chalet. hrmm.
after that tues for xiao yuan superstar stuff.
thurs gotta rebond hair.
bahh bahh bahh.
BLACK SHEEP.

hrmm.
please stop saying stuffs that make me THINK.
i'd like things to be all simple and clear.
i dont like misunderstadings.
and dont hurt me.
im a happy girl.

ytd was zhi high day
and mood swing day.
i was grumpy.
and den i was hyper.
and den i was sad.
and mad.
aha. whatever.
we had fun doing nonsense tho.
just that we got bad seats.
hah. nvm. ((:

strangers-

i guess it's irritating how fast things can change.
and its irritating how my emotions can affect me so much
it's amazing how we just "hallucinate" about things
when they are not exactly the way we IMAGINE it is.
or rather.
ive always been living in my imaginary world.
oblivious to the truths of life.
hurt by you.

my aussie trip was fine.
i had sad times and good times.
but i tink the length's just fine.
i dinn have dreadful feelings gg back to sg.
and i dinn think that the trip was too short either.
plus i DID enjoy myself after all. (:
first day.
drools over the hunks with great figures there.
(by my cuzz) (x
alrights. we just went walking.
to the supermarket to stock up.
and den to the beach to tann. (:
well. tann failed.

second day.
off to dreamworld.
yes. ive become a COWARD.
my guts all gone.
i dinn dare to take rides i USED TO LOVE.
ended up taking childish rides like reptar.
SIGH.

third day
habourtown.
shopping.

fourth day
movieworld!

fifth day
hmmm. tungaluma.
took us 2hrs plus to get there.
and we had to pay like wad? thousand plus a head jus to get thre?
was it? yeah. and we again had to pay for the activites there.
which are VERY expensive. )x
IT RAINED VERY HEAVILY.
but anyways. we manage to do some sand slide thing.
super freaky.
we had to climb this steep hill.
so tiring!
and when we got to the top, realised that the other part of the hill was steep too.
so like both sides can just fall off. madness.
plus our legs were alrdy tired like crazy. so abit the unstable ahh. hahs.
i fed the dolphin too!
it was 8plus, super dark.
rained so wind strong and CHILLING.
had to go all the way into the sea to feed the dolphins.
hah. freaky. cos it was so CLOSE to us.
plus it keeps coming up to us with open mouth and TEETHs showing.
mann.
i went fishing too!
in the storm. but i caught a BIG FISH.
(x

there was nothing much after that.
jus shopping.
and yah. stuffs.
got nice stuffs.
a tattoo.
bahhs.