okay. im abit spinning now.
hahaha. whatever.
i woke up with a bad throat.
like super pain.
it was difficult to get every single drop of saliva down okay.
i tried studying. but but. yeahh.
i just think my year is really screwed.
but you know what.
WHATEVER.

yesterday was nonsensical day.
prize taking.
i was so busy smiling i forgot to bow. hahaha.
but i was not the only one alright.
later. we got to community singing! yumms!
the tchers and their marvellous brains.
they got the whole hype!
bubbles! confetties! ahh. whatever you spell it.
goh goh!
ang ang!
haha. gohgoh was busy.
i saw angang gave the "you guys are really mad" look to us when he left the whole.
but in the WOW positive tone and not the EEEEW negative tone.
welcome angang to the cedar family! heh.
oh oh.
tmr's HOLIDAY.
and im gonna spent it at home!
studying my head out.
friday will be results.
monday will be english oral.
thats fast.
i seriously wonder how i'll do for prelims.
REALLY.
maybe i can dream on about gg VJC.
dream dream dream.

isnt life all about dreaming.
you can dream that you have this wonderful life.
but you dont.
you can dream that you have someone who'll always be there for you.
but seriously, you're on your own.
you can dream to be totally smart and pretty.
but you're dumb and fuggly.

actually.
YOU dont have to care about anything i say really.
you dont have to bother or.... or.... orr.... i dont know.
maybe all this was just hallucinations.
i'll always be there for you to turn to.
but you'll turn the other direction.
you'll get yourself someone much better.
than this retarded.

i'm gonna learn to..
cry on tissues.
hug my pillows.
talk to papers.
lean on walls.
depend on non-living things.
den to hopelessly look for someone out there.



i gave away barney.