so its my fault again?

why is the world just all revolved around you.
can you just be more understanding?

guys and their fucking ego. argh.

the most sociable pple are the most dangerous creature on earth.
im f angry with you for exposing my feelings to others.
it was meant to be a secret if you f did not realise it.


maybe these f pple need to be taught a f-ing lesson.
please treat others seriously.

bcos when i thought i could trust in you,
you shouldnt break me aparrt just like that.


i hate you.
i hate promises.
& thats why i've lost the faith.
i've lost the faith to tell anyone anything.



but just so you know,
im over him.
bcos i was just a foolish retarded stupid fool
as always.

FUCK YOU.

i love exercising wheeeeee(:
somehow it just makes me feel so much bettter after that. & so i shall not be lazy anymore and exercise more! =D yayy!
i ran pretty long today. almost an hour. took my usual route and then i told myself that i should try to run longer. so i took another route, i turned left instead of right. and then i just came running all the way and i tried running back and halfway i got lost. in the end i had to turn about which looked kind of retarded cos i literally ran into a dead end. oh wells, thank god not many pple were there. heh.
then i stepped onto the weighing scare and WOOHOO. i lost about 0.5kg. hee.

anyhow. i went for an interview this morning. and i realised that actually i could have answered some questions better. sigh. i should always think through properly before i get into an interview bcos im always so muddle headed and im always forgetting my stuffs. BRENDA ):

yesterday was a pretty interesting day. alot of things happened which made me think of a lot of other stuff. im just glad im not as bothered about that thing anymore. sometimes we should really learn to let go.

tomorrow brings an end to today.

there's something wrong with my internal clock. i keep waking up at 11am. HMMMM. maybe its cos im used to nepal time cos that'll make it 830am there. haha. oh wells. the other sg tour group's probably having fun there right now. arhhs.

sometimes i'd rather not hope.
maybe i should just leave things as it is.
maybe that's how it's all suppose to be anyway.
am i being over sensitive.
or maybe it wasnt suppose to be at all.
maybe i'm just being foolish
stupid.

sigh. what a world.
what are friends for anyway.

):

i'm back from nepal and im missing it terribly.
I LOVE NEPAL. all of us do.
SIGH. and plus we had a cute guide that yingwah was crazy over (AHEM) haha. oh wells.
im definitely returning back there again. to climb one of the mountains this time.
but first. i'll have to train up first.
ANYBODY INTERESTED? hee. please look for me so we can go train up together ):
lol.

the first day we reached there we got quite a shock bcos the country was yeah. kind of low down and dirty and all that. esp when i stepped into the toilet. haha. at that time i just wanted the 8 days to just fly by so i could get back to the comforts of singapore. but then we soon got to experience and love the country. it's just so untouched, so original. so pretty. especially the landscapes. rafting and boating through the mountains. SIGH. trekking up to the stupa and to those schools.

OH. and we are so gonna set up our own NGO. but yeah. we should start small first. hahaha. im gonna sign up as a volunteer! anybody interested could come join me, visit the website www.ccf.org.sg (children cancer foundation)

OH WELLS. NEPAL! ):

im feeling so sad for AJ prom bcos the more i hear from other schools. i just think aj prom was quite boring... okay actually it was reallllyyy boring.
bcos firstly there was NO DANCE. not like other schools that even went for after prom (when we are already LEGAL) we had no dance, no dance at all. not even at the hotel itself.
and then it was sooo long. it ate into our clubbing time and we didnt club. haha. i just thought it was too draggy. and the "games" we played werent even fun at all. it doesnt even involve us. ayys. what the heck. its over. im just happy to see eveyrone all dressed up and that's already a good memory to keep. but thanks anyway i know people did put in effort for us.(:

anywayy! i think today is damn fufilling.
we went to sentosa to sun tan but it was rather cloudy. BUT we still got burnt. lol. unknowingly. i only realised now bcos im feeling hot and hot. haha. and im looking red. and then we thought that the card allowed us access to sentosa the whole day so we foolishly went to vivo for lunch thinking that it was cheaper and ended up not being able to re-enter sentosa. HAHA. joke. but so we decided to do something else instead...

we climbed mount faber

haha. i love climbing actually i dont know why.though its tiring. but i just like it. it makes me feel satisfied. heh. we reached the peak!! its called FABER POINT. hahah. and then we decided to go to henderson waves. the new long long bridge that looks like a wave. haha. and then we found a nice spot to just sit down and rest. heh. super relaxing. whee. walked down again. and got misleaded by the two people again. (okay never ever follow their directions even when they say they know the way. LIARS!) haha. ended up taking a bus back to where we started again.
quite amazing actually. we walked alot today(:
i like!
i should go climb more mountains.

YAY TO US!

sigh. my dear 50 dollars. why did you fly away!
argh.
it's the second time im losing money. i dont know why. im just damn careless. argh.
how can i just let it FLY away like that. sigh.
im not going back to that place anymore. haha.
and even if i do. im not sitting at that place where the fan is blowing. and im not gonna let my money fly away.
so now im gonna save up. im gonna stay at home the whole entire week.
im not going for kbox. im not gonna pub. im not gonna club.
i'll just stay at home and pack for my trip and study for my BTT.
and of course. im not gonna SHOP.
DEPRESSING!

i should really focus on getting a job to feed my expenditure. mummy's already complaining. haha. and i got rejected yesterday cos of my stupid trip! which i really regret going cos it's really expensive. but what the heck. i'll enjoy it to the very last bit so that i dont waste that money. hopefully it'll be nice! thees.
NEPAL NEPAL NEPAL!

it's farewell already.
so fast so soon.
how time flies.

from the first time we met in j1 till right now.
as said by some of them "Fate brought us together"
i guess pretty much so.
i love my class! i love 26(:
& all our wonderful teachers.
which includes ms in bcos i think probably she's really sad to see us like this.
but the thing is she still hasnt gotten to really know us well.
& she's always doing things based on her "zi jue"
but anyhow she said her piece today.
& she gave us parker pens encraved with our names on it & words of great wisdom
i think she means well. actually, no, i know she means well.

i guess sometimes its always better to look at things on the more positive note. rather than be bothered by the nitty gritty nehneh stuffs. that probably would make us sadder.

and my class sabo-ed me to take a picture with toh!i was damn maluated bcos it was so obvious. i guess he knows already lahh! ahh. but nevermind. im grateful for them too! now i have a photo to keep! heh. and we'll probably not see each other again.

ANYHOW.

now it's time to show them what we're worth.
go 26!
we'll get straight A's!

omg. im blogging bcos i just heard that tj oac's undergoing major changes.
and it's just damn sad to know that. bcos oac has made such a great impact on my life. i cant BEAR to watch it just go away like that and people will not have the opportunity to undergo this great experience like WE did.

AHH OAC!!!

its just all the tough trainings and torture that makes us so strong and united. all the punishments and punctuality and seriousness that we were finally trained to accomplish mountains. and it was and definitely OAC that made me realise how much more there is to this world then studying. there are like mountains out there to explore. AHH. and it was definitely OAC that made me so much fitter now.

like despite all 4 years in cedar tennis i could only clock 15mins plus for 2.4km and die and just 2/3 months in oac that my timing just dropped down to 13 minutes! and and and. oh my gosshh. how much respect we had for the seniors and all our good buddies. and.... SIGH. running in the rain with our heavy backpacks filled with sand and water. up those slopes, how we were always shouted at to "CLOSE THE GAPS!" how we sang and cheered during our trainings and in the mountains. how we were forced to run 400m within 2 mins if not run again. and and and.... how i felt before each training, even taking glucose so that i can endure the training. how we used to climb how many floors? 26 with those heavy backpacks within 3 minutes? how yong used to help me and gave me so much encouragesments. how we 3 girls had to do those pull ups. OMG.

just when i had a dream that i climbed a mountain.

wthh. please dont make oac undergo such a major reformation. I MISS OAC ): poor eug & everyone else must have went through tonnes to save the club.
people should actually learn from them. OAC!!

stupid brenda why did you leave!