i'm here to blog and somehow get into some english mood so that on the 10th, (is it even 10th) ah whatever. NEXT WEDNESDAY. i will write my compo well and ace my english paper. =D

let's see. ong and leong the lawyers said today.
woman are mulit-taskers.
oh no. den why am i not one? maybe im not a woman. haha. true enough. half male. that's why we enjoy each other's company and not get bored on the phone. quite amazing. haha.

i realised somthing today. that i'm super random. and its because everything to me is so surface and because i dont go into depth. so im random. like i will say one thing. and den say the other thing. just like how my blog is. its always jumping from one topic to another. and i never really got INTO one whole topic before. irritating. i dont remember myself like that when i was in sec1 and 2. i will crap so uber much about some dumb thing. maybe i should get some of that back to the now me. den again. that was disgusting. so i should just let it past and not care about it cos i'll just make myself remember some stuff again. but IMPROVE. uh huhhhh.

FRIENDS. so wonderful. haha. do you know how dreadful dependency is. its like a habit. a routine. repertoire of life. and one day it disappears. hard to adapt. but thats life huh. its got to be a skill. to learn to really be strong inside and stand tall, not caring about anything at all. but face it. if you have that pumping machine inside. you just can't help yourself but to feel unnecessay emotions. lets see. its like you have hands. and one day the hands are gone. rather. say you are used to leaning on this pillar. and one day the pillar's gone. you know what. it should be like this. learn to not expect too much. better still! learn to expect the worse. so whether or not you get it the way you want it to be. its still better than that worse. heh. (: we should all just not get dependent on each other. but im dependent on yingwah manda xiang er and eugenia and karmun and fiona already. one day if you were to disappear. i'd die. and i'd trust you wouldnt BEAR to see me in pain. RIGHT! heh.

TRUST! the key to any relationship. the key. just don't lose it.
DO I HAVE IT?
lol.
come on.
TRUST ME! =D

and one day.
you'll disappear off my life.
that day will come.